𝑴𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 | Billie eilish

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐲 𝐭𝐰𝐨

Sh and suicide attempt mentioned
Mels pov

It's been about 5 days.

5 days since I've seen Lexie and Billie kiss.

The day I saw my life falling apart

I know I know I should make this over. A big deal but I really did love her

And finding out she's been cheating on me. Probably made me fall to the place I was before me and Billie started talking again

I've been ignoring everyone calls for 5 days. And not step my out of my bathroom.

I've cut myself for the first time in months. The pain was something I've missed. It's the sharp feeling digging into my skin I've missed. It looks bad. But it feels so good. Since then I've been only wearing long sleeves. I hate long sleeves

I was staring at the wall. But I quickly jumped hearing the door open aggressively

"Where the fuck have you been... and why does it smell like I took a shit in here" jens nose scrunched up.

I didn't speak. I couldn't.

I'm was tired

Jens eyes met mine and her brows immediately furrowed

"hey what the fuck happened in here" Jen took her hands in mine

I just sat up and shrugged my shoulders.

"Mels I know billies side of the story I want to know what happened to you"

"I'm so tired" I finally gave up and let all the tears fall down my cheeks as my vision became blurry and I fell in jens arms.

She rubbed my back as sobs left my mouth.

After about 5 minutes I leant back on my head board sighing and giving jen a slight smile.

"It's okay Mels" jens hands went over the cuts over the piece of clothing.

My breath hitched as a sharp pain shot from them. Mels eyes furrowed once again and she looked down my forearm. She slowly pulled my sleeve up looking me up every second giving her consent. I couldn't even stop her. The pain was unbearable.

A gasp left her lips as she saw multiple cuts taking over my whole forearm.

God what have i done

"jeez Mels there infected" Jen stood up quickly walking to the joint bathroom I had in my room.

After a few seconds of hearing her go around my bathroom finding all the things to help she stopped and looked into my eyes while holding a bottle of xanx.

Oh shit

"What the fuck Mels" jens brows furrowed giving me a sad look

"I-I-I can explain" I stuttered

"So you tried to kill your self" I could see jens face the saddest it ever looked

"I-I-I" I tried to get words out my mouth but nothing came out.

Jen walked into the room brining all the things with her. Even the xanx

"I can't believe this Mels. But this isn't your fault and what's happened to you since the last time I saw you isn't your fault as well. I just wish you told me-" jens voice broke as she started cleaning and wrapping all the cuts

I just kept my eyes glued on the floor ashamed with myself

"I'm sorry" the only small whisperer came out.

"It's okay. But I want you to know this isn't your fault. And it's not billies" I looked at her furrowing my brows "she told me what happened. Pretty much Lexie threw herself onto Billie and I can believe Billie because she showed me the present she was gonna give you for your 6 month"

"Our six month is still 1 month away" a small smiled appeared on my lips.

"Yeah I know" Jen chuckled

I laughed but it died down after a bit.

I need to talk to her

"I need to talk to Her"

"Should I bring her here" Jen smiled 

"What?" I asked confused

"She's in the car waiting" Jens chuckled

"Oh"

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A/n I am so sorry for not posting a chapter for two weeks.

So that's why I'm giving you two chapters

SORRY