HE Who Saw the Deep

Chapter 13

A week of holidays followed that day reason for me to have time to reflect on everything.

Unlike the sunny and vibrant weather today, my mood became gloomy when I heard my classmates' murmurs early in the morning.

"Oo nga!" Natasia giggled as she was encircled by our other classmates.

"I feel like manliligaw na iyon sa'yo tash!"

"Si Eron ba?"

"Si Zeina naman gusto nun, delusional ka naman diyan, umaga pa. "

"Huh? Sinong nagsabi sa inyo niyan? Hindi ba sila ni Eryna?"

"Anong sila? May taste naman siguro iyon! " Tumawa sila pero mas naririnig ko ang tawa ni Natasia.

I formed a fist as I scribbled on my notes. May taste nga, kaya nga nagconfess sa akin eh!

I rolled my eyes because it's also not impossible for him to tell that to another woman.

"Nagconfess na nga kasi ako, sabi ko sabay kaming maglunch mamaya." Natasia excitedly shared

"Pumayag ba?"

"Hmmm," Tumawa siya

Nagsituksuhan sila. "Ano ba?! Ang iingay niyo, nag-aaral iyong tao oh!" Si Gavin na nakakunot ang noo. They immediately shut their mouths. And looked at him with indifference.

"Ikaw naman Natasia, sa labas kayo mag-usap kung ganyan kayo kalakas magchismisan, kairita. Kung tapos na kayong mag-aral para sa finals, then go out and don't disturb people. Learn to be aware of your environment naman." He added, I looked back at them only to see Natasia pouting, nearly in tears.

Another week followed after we completed our finals. No signs of Eron around but his name is everywhete in our classroom since Natasia's all talk about how she interacted with Eron.

I don't like how I feel right now. I feel so wrong for  pushing him away. Hurting him with my insensitive words.

I want to apologize. I want to tell him that I'm wrong and I'm sorry. However, when I checked my messenger to message him. It says I'm unable to message the account.

I gulped the lump in my throat when I realized he might've blocked me. I sighed and bit the insides of my cheeks.

Should I approach him tomorrow? No I shouldn't. I pushed him away, the guts of me to approach him just like that?!

Pero noong naglunes ay hindi ko siya nakita kahit sa classroom nila. Hindi siya pumasok? I asked one of his classmates only to know he's on the hospital.

Admitted for an unknown reason. Nagtanong ako kung anong hospital pero hindi rin naman ako nasagot.

Should I make him something to feel better? Pero magugustuhan niya kaya? Ni hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta pero sobra sobra na ang iniisip ko.

"Ah, Eryna." The boy called me and realized he knew where Eron is.

He told me the address and then I left after saying my thanks.

Hindi ko alam kung anong iniisip ko pero pagkatapos ng klase ay natagpuan ko nalang ang sariling tinatahak ang daan papunta sa hospital na tinutukoy ng kaklase.

Should I text him?

To: Eron Smith
Can I visit?

I received no reply even when I arrived at the said hospital. Nagtungo ako sa lobby at nagtanong agad doon.

Nang malaman ang room number ay mabilis kong hinanap iyon. Gumagabi na at hindi pa ako kumakain, bumili naman ako ng makakain naming.... dalawa if gusto niyang makisabay rin ako sa kanya pero that's the least of my concern.