College roommate 

Kiss

SUNDAY 15/5/2007 6:15
I wake up early
Like it's still dark outside
Bill must have scooted back further during the night but I don't mind
He is pretty
I will admit that
Even though it's cringe
Oh shit I didn't take the meds
Maybe I can now
I try to move without waking bill up
I go slowly
He starts moving around
Shit
I freeze
He rolls over so he's Facing me and he wraps his arms around me
He falls back into a deep sleep
I grab the pills and take 2
Then I lay back down
Bills eyes slowly open but he shoves his face into my chest
Fuck I have butterflies
That's weird
Bill graons
I feel him move his face so he's looking at me, he laughs a little
"Why are you laughing" I ask ask
"Nothing" bill says
"Tell me" I say
"You like when I touch you but you don't like when other people do right?" Bill asks
"Yeah?" I ask
I feel Bill nod
"Why what.. bill what do you mean" I ask
"Nothing nothing" bill says
"I'm not gay" I say
"Never said you were" bill replies
I lied
I don't know what I am
Bill makes me nervous
"Why did you leave?" Bill asks
"What?" I ask
"When I tried to kiss you" bill says
"I.. I don't know, maybe I was overwhelmed" I say
Bill nods
The room is pitch black I can't see his face
"So you don't like having friends, or being in relationships, so what is this" bill asks
Shit I've never thought of that
"Uh" I say
"I mean, I guess your my close friend" I say
"I like that" bill says
I feel bill move slightly
He crawls into my lower waist straddling me
"Is this okay" he asks
"Yeah" I whisper
I feel as bill leans down and digs his face into my shoulder
I move my hand to his back
Rubbing up and down
He quietly moans in my ear
Oh
I stop rubbing
"Keep going that feels nice" bill whispers
Me and bill fall back asleep like that

(Time skip to 8:30am)
I get up but I don't know where bill is
He walks out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist
I sit back down on my bed and watch him
"Take a picture it lasts longer" he says
I quickly look away
"Sorry" I say
"Like what you see?" Bill asks
No shit no I don't
"Yeah" I say
WHAT THE FUCK
WHY CANT I CONTROL MYSELF
Bill looks back at me confused
"Sorry my minds blank I didn't mean that" I say
"Aww that's to bad" bill says
I look down to his waist
"You have a tattoo" I say
"Woah no shit" bill replies
Bill goes back into the bathroom and he comes out wearing long silk pj pants AND HES SHIRTLESS
WHATS WRONG WITH ME
IM ACTING LIKE A 13 year old girl
I don't think he's wearing boxers either
God why am I looking
I'm gonna have to ask grace later
"Can I lay with you?" Bill asks
I nod
Probably the fastest nod I've ever nodded
Bill crawls up and onto me
He lays his head on my chest and then he puts one leg over one of mine
Oh shit ok
I'm just gonna text grace
Yes
Okay
Me - GRACE HELP ME
Grace - WHAT?!
Me - I THINK I LIKE BILL AND I DONT LIKE IT
Grace - OMG YAYAYAYAY, YOUR SO FREAKED BY LIKING SOMEONE, just be happy y/n, tell bill
Me - no way I could never
Grace- okay well ur gonna have to live with that

She's right
I put my phone down
I roll bill off of me
He groans and pulls me back to him
I crawl over him
He looks me in the eyes really confused
I think for a second and go for it
I dig my face into the crook of his neck and I suck on his pale skin
"Ah y/n" bill whimpers
I move my head
"Is this okay" I ask
Bill nods and puts his slim hands on my face
He pulls me in and out lips connect
Finally feeling his soft lips against mine is so good
He parts his lips and I let my tongue explore his wet mouth
He's got a tongue piercing
"Mm wait" bill says pushing me back
"What are you doing y/n?" Bill asks
"I- I like you, a lot bill" I say
I've never said anything like that to anyone
Fuck he probably thinks I'm weird
I should just go
Shit
I back up
"I'm sorry I'll just-
"Stop" bill says
I'm now leaning against the wall
Bill crawls over to me
He straddles my lap
"I like you too, a lot" he says
I smile mostly in relief
I wrap my arms around bills back and pull him in for a hug
Me and bill keep making out
I let my hands slide down his back
Yep I was right
I can't feel boxers through his silk pants
That means.. his dick is
Well silk is thin
So
Oh fuck
"Y/n your hard" bill says
"Shit" i say
I didn't even notice
"Ignore it" I say
We keep making out
"Okay y/n, I'd seriously rather you deal with it, it's kinda poking me" bill says laughing
"Okay I'll be back" I say
I jump up quickly and go to the bathroom
I make sure to keep quiet
I don't want to embarrass myself any more
Once I cum I wash my hands and when I walk out there is another boy
"This is Tom, my brother" bill says
I nod
I'm just staring at bill
His long torso
Those hips
His ass
Oh god
I don't know how I didn't see any of this before
Wait fuck
I need to chill
Fuck fuck fuck
I'm fucked up
"Tom was just leaving anyways" bill says
He practically pushes Tom out the door
"Can we just cuddle" he say
"Yeah okay" I say