My secret office romance [Kim Taehyung FF]

Chapter 12- Trying to cope up

"So, you're with me just because of your feeling guilty about what happened....?" I spoke. He stayed silent which gave me the answers to my questions

"Taehyung-g.... I-I don't think this-s is going to work. I think we should divorce each-h other" I said standing up 

"What!? No, why would you do that-t?" He replied almost immediately gripping my shoulders

"What's the point of staying with each other, if I only remind you of your guilt" I said with tears in my eyes. His eyes soon filled up with tears while looking at me

"I think-k I should leave..." I said as I turned around to leave but he caught my wrist making me look at him as my eyes met his teary ones

"I've never been selfish in my life but... I don't want you to leave" I didn't wanted to leave him either but that doesn't mean he'll be reminded of his guilt every time he sees me

"Taehyung-"

"Don't leave me please. I can't loose you.... not again" He said while sobbing as my heart softened at his state. I wanted to hug him and comfort him but at the same time, I did nothing but remind him of his guilt

"Taehyung-" Before I could complete my sentence, he pulled me towards him and attached his soft lips onto mine. I was taken aback by his action but I kissed him back. I pulled away when I felt something wet on my face

"Taehyung, why are you crying-g?" I asked wiping his tears

"If you-u leave-e me this time, I'll die-e" He said while sobbing

"Taehyung, what are you even saying?" I asked in disbelief on hearing his words

"No, I mean-n it! If you leave-e me again.. I'll die-e" He said, sitting down and sobbing

"Taehyung, are you even in your senses!" I said

"I am! It is better than staying away from you! I was always around you even when you came to Seoul. When you became my secretary, I was so happy. And then, finally, I married you but you never loved as much as I did but I don't blame you but... if you leave me... I'll have-e no hope to live-e" He said breaking down more 

"You have no idea-a how much I-I love you..." Was the last thing he said before he fainted in my arms

"Taehyung.... Taehyung" I said repeatedly tapping his cheeks but no response 

I somehow managed to carry him towards the bed and made him lay on it. Picking up my phone, I called a doctor. Soon the doctor arrived and checked him

"I suppose he fainted because of stress. I'll give a few medicines, give it to him once he wakes up. There's nothing to worry about, Mrs. Kim" The doctor said passing a smile

"Thank you doctor" I bowed as he smiled and left while I went and sat next to Taehyung

"Why do you take so much stress?" I asked caressing his hairs as I watched his sleeping figure. That's when I remembered, I just lost my first kiss to someone who loves me but what about me? Do I love him? Shrugging off my thoughts, I walked to the kitchen to make something to eat. After a good 30 minutes of cooking, I flinched when I heard a voice behind me

"Y/n?"

"Oh my god, you scared me! Taehyung, why are you up? You should take rest" I said trying to take him back to our bedroom but he refused to go

"Why should I listen to you if you're going to leave me anyway" He said pouting

"Fine, I won't leave you, now go" I said hoping him to leave

"No, you're just saying it so that I listen to you and leave" Damn, this guy is smart

"Taehyung... look at me.... you know that you can't force someone to love you right? and moreover, I'll only remind you of your guilt right?" I asked cupping his cheeks

"Then why do you care if I live or die if you're going to leave me!" He slightly raised his voice

"Taehyung, stop acting childish!" I raised my voice

"Now I'm acting childish! All you see is that you remind me of what happened 4 years back! Why can't you see me now! Why can't you see how much I loved you and how much I still love you!" He almost yelled

"I'll leave tomorrow" I said walking away

"No-o, Y/n-n, Please-e"

"Taehyung! I've made up my mind, Please" 

"Fine! But remember, I'm not going to sign those divorce papers and I'll never show you my face again, remember!" He said before walking away

"Taehyung-g please, don't do this-s..."

"And you can't see what you are doing! All you care about is yourself! Why can't you see how much I suffered when the doctors said you can't remember anything? Why can't you see how much I cried every night when you didn't recognize me? Why can't you see how much I've always loved you?! You can..... but I'm not ready to cut ties with you!" He said before leaving the house and harshly shutting the door

I fell on my knees as tears rolled down my eyes. Somewhere his words hit me hard. All I cared about was myself. No one ever wondered how he would've felt. But the decision I made.. is it good? Will I be happy after I leave him?

My thoughts were interrupted when I got a call. It was from Taehyung but why is he calling me all of a sudden?

"Hello, Taehyung?"

"Who is this?" An unfamiliar voice spoke from the other side making me confused

"Excuse me?"

"Are you any relative of the owner of the phone?" The man on the other side asked

"Yes, I'm his wife. Is anything wrong? Why do you have him phone?" I asked getting quiet anxious. I could hear indistinct chatter in the background also some sirens more like an police siren. I started getting more tensed but the next thing he said, I felt like my world shattered into pieces

"The owner of this phone got into a car accident..."