Burning in Revenge

Why not Him?

Aishwarya's POV 

"Do you love me truly?" I asked 

"It would be hard for you to believe after what I did but trust me Aishu, you are the only girl I ever loved. Breaking up with you was the toughest decision in my life. I don't know how to make you believe..." 

"I can't forgive and trust you but I will try to forget past for our baby and everyone's happiness" I said

"Thank you Aishu, that means a lot to me. I will gain your trust" he said 

He dropped me outside hospital. Around 10am I went to meet Vishal to give him one patient's case file who is suffering from brain tumor. 

"Don't mix personal and professional things. Grow up Sushanth, are you a kid to quit MS for that incident?" I heard Vishal scold 

"I don't want to change my mind. Please give this letter to Dr. Aishwarya, I don't have courage to see her, ashamed of myself" it's Sushanth

I entered without knocking, they both were surprised to see me. Sushanth looked down

"Sorry to disturb you sir. Can you look into this file" I gave Vishal file

"I'm going to cafeteria, would you like to join me Dr. Sushanth" I asked 

They both looked at me in shock

"I have to go Dr. Aishwarya" he said looking down

"You were brave when you misbehaved with me and don't have the courage for apologize? Come with me" I said

I went to cafeteria, Sushanth followed me. He gave me letter when I sat.

"Why don't you sit and tell what you want to say? Letters are for people who are far away" i said 

He sat in front of me

"I'm sorry" he said looking down

"Why are you leaving?" I asked 

"After how I behaved with you... I'm ashamed of myself. I don't know how I could behave with you like that. You are right, I'm no less than a rapist. I'm so sorry" he apologized 

"Don't mix personal and professional things. You project yourself as if you don't care about your work but in reality you love treating patients and you are fast with diagnosis and procedures too" 

"I can't stay here, looking at you... I'm ashamed of what I have done"

"What do you want to do now?" I asked 

"I didn't think" he said 

"You regret your behavior?" I asked 

"Yes Aishwarya, I can't believe I behaved that way. I like you more than a friend, probably I love you, I'm not sure. 

I saw you in the hospital when you went for gynecological check up, I learnt about your pregnancy.

I have lot of respect for you from day one, imagined you as a perfect ideal woman. Probably I couldn't take it that you got pregnant before marriage. I went crazy.

I was always jealous seeing your closeness with Mahesh and HOD. Your relation with Vikram... i can't even describe how I feel...his possessiveness... I had no idea you were married to Vikram.

Whatever is the reason, my behavior is unacceptable" he said with so much regret 

I thought he was just flirting with me, never thought he has feelings for me, not even in my wild dreams. He doesn't know how to express his feelings... he tried to express his love by flirting... he was angry because I got pregnant without marriage. He tried to express his anger by misbehaving with me.

"Why did you become Doctor?" I asked

"We were not always rich. My mom died giving birth to me because of lack of good medical facility...I want to help poor who can't afford"

"Why are you giving up then? Forget about that incident, I'm forgiving you" I said

When I could forgive Vishal and Vicky, why not Sushanth. He is not bad either. That was the only time he crossed his limits. He hurt me so much by his behavior but I shouldn't judge him based on that.

"Thank you Aishwarya, that means a lot to me" he said 

"I'm sorry about my husband manhandling you" I apologized 

He laughed

"Any sane person would react that way. I was surprised by your reaction that day, saved me, thought about my future. Even today you talked me into not giving up my career. 

I wish I could go back in time and change past. You are a wonderful person Aishwarya. The words I said that day... you don't deserve such cruel words and behavior" 

"I can't deny that I was very hurt that day but right now I don't want to think about it. We have to see each other everyday for the next three years... I want to forget that incident and be professional" I said honestly 

"Sorry and thank you" he said 

"Come, we can't take break for this long. Are you ok to join today?" I asked 

He nodded

We both went to ward. Everyone were surprised seeing us together, I ignored. I was busy, attended three surgeries and had to take care of post op and see few patients. I was too busy to think of anything. 

Aunty and uncle's flight is tonight. I was crying inside but put brave face in front of them. After giving send off at the airport, I broke down. Vicky consoled me, i slept in his arms. When I woke up I was on bed and he was sleeping on sofa in my room.