Dindin's
EVER since that night of our first kiss, everything changes between us. Kissing became a routine for the both of us. It makes me happy and tingly all over, but I also realized how touch deprive Jayjay is. He was cold and snobby to everyone – well except to his friends and me. He is shameless whenever he asks for attention from me. He likes kissing – kahit na anong ginagawa ko o niya kapag gusto niyang makipaghalikan ay hahalikan niya ako. Yesterday, in the middle of the laundry, bigla na lang niya akong hinatak at ibinalya nang bahagya sa pader at saka ako hinalikan. My eyes widened in surprise but then I felt how good his lips were and I just had to kiss him back.
The thing is, Jayjay is my first kiss and I realized that I wouldn't have it any other way. I like the fact that he is my first kiss and that I feel safe whenever we do this kind of thing – kahit na ngayon mismong umagang ito sa parking lot ng University habang nakasandal ako sa hood ng kotse niya at walang tigil ang pagkain niya sa labi ko.
"Ja--- wait, stop..." I hissed at him. Bahagya ko siyang tinulak. I looked at him, gusto kong matawa kasi nakapikit pa si Jayjay at tila talaga ninanamnam ang pagkakataong hawak niya ako ngayon, ang problema naman kasi, maraming nakakakita sa amin. Sanay naman akong pinag – uusapan ako ng lahat dahil sa pagiging gold digger at kakaiba ko sa kanilang lahat, but somehow, I didn't want them to find out about Jayjay and me. Hindi naman ako nahihiya, it's just that I want everything between him and me to be just him and me.
"What? Kiss me again..." Kinindatan niya ako saka muling nag – lean para ilapit ang mukha niya sa akin. He was about to kiss me again when I pushed him again. Sa pagkakataong muli niya akong tiningnan ay nakakunot na ang kanyang noo at bahagyang nakaawang ang labi, para bang hindi katanggap – tanggap para sa kanya na tinatanggihan ko siya ngayon. Ang ayoko lang naman ay may makakita sa amin at kung ano – anong sabihin patungkol sa aming dalawa. Hinahayaan ko naman siyang gawin sa akin ang lahat kapag nasa loob kami ng condo niya.
"What is wrong?" He demanded. I looked around – I was right, people could see us and some of the are already raising their eyebrows because of the sight.
"People could see..." Mahinang wika ko.
"Then fucking let them." Muli na naman siyang susunggab sa akin.
"Jacob..." Mahinang wika ko. "What about your fiancée. Si Lauren?" Sa pagkakataong iyon ay lalong kumunot ang noo niya. I have said the magic word. Lalayo na siya sa akin. I guess, pareho kaming hindi handa sa mga sasabihin ng ibang tao. I sighed and readied myself for his withdrawal but then to my surprise, he grinned at me.
"Do not think of other people while we're doing this, Divina." Titig na titig siya sa akin. "I don't care about anyone else. It is you that I want, so I will kiss you again, and we will let these people see what we are doing. Let them talk, let them say whatever. Now kiss me again." May conviction ang lahat ng sinasabi niya, and somehow, he managed to convince me. I let him kiss me again, bahagya niya pang hinawakan ang baywang ko para itaas ako at mahagkan nang mas malalim. I groaned a bit because his tongue is playing with my tongue, nakikilit ang gulugod ko. Hindi ko talaga alam na magugustuhan ko ang sensasyong binibigay niya sa akin and the fact that people can see this thing makes it more fucking exciting.
By lunch, Jayjay and I parted ways. We both have lectures and we're both busy with our incoming prelims. I am looking forward to going home where we can be clingy with each other. Hindi na ako natutulog sa couch niya. After our first kiss, doon pa rin naman ako nahiga sa couch na iyon, pero bandang madaling – araw ay nagising akong buhat – buhat ako ni Jayjay, he laid me down to his bed and snuggled against me. Mula noon ay magkasama na kami sa iisang silid, at sa iisang kama. Being with him makes me feel good. I want him around always. I want to take care of him like the way he is taking care of me. Ang saya – saya ko kapag magkasama kami.
