Kevin's Baby

Chapter 33: Didn't see you coming

Kevin's POV

"Ashley" I whispered.

For a second I couldn't think of anything, it was like my mind went totally blank.

I have been dying to see her again but now that I saw her disappearing in front of my own eyes I'm not sure if I'm ready to face her yet or not because I don't know what her reaction will be after seeing me.

Damn!

Why am I getting nervous all of a sudden.

Will she be happy to see me?

No of course not I'm the one because of whom she left the place where she grew up than why on earth would she be happy to see me again.

She most probably still thinks that I cheated on her. I know she'll be mad at me. I know she'll question me or rather accuse me for cheating on her.

But how do I prove to her that I never did any such thing...that I love her the most in the entire world...that only she has the power to make my heart flip...and also the power of breaking it...which she already did when she left me behind with a letter and divorce papers.

But these are not the only things that made me freeze in my place. The thing is she looked a little different...she looked a little chubbier but that's not what I'm stunned or worried about.

Actually I don't know if it's just the sadness...the pain of losing my first and only child that's making me see things that do not exist in reality...but I think I saw that she had a baby bump.

I don't know how the fuck is that even possible...but I-I did saw it.

Well that is surely possible if she has moved on and had another baby with someone else, a little voice in my head spoke.

And somehow that little innocent thought alone was enough to make my heart twist in pain and jealousy and my jaw clench in anger.

But I know that's complete nonsense because she wouldn't be showing this much if she was pregnant for the second time I mean she looked like she was around seven or eight months along.

Wait.

When I left for my business trip and she had a miscarriage she was around two and a half months along and it's been five months since she left.

What. The. Fuck.

Though I don't know how to tell you this but I surely know that what I'm about to say will break your heart...but you have every right to know that...that I-I lost our baby.

I had a miscarriage.

I lost a part of my soul today which I'll never be able to find again.

I don't have the strength to see your hopes and dreams breaking down in front of me because I have already had a great loss and I'm broken.

I don't think I can handle seeing you breaking down too.

I'm letting you go.

"...she was so stressed and restless that one night she had lots of sleeping pills just to escape everything"

"...she woke up in the pool of her own blood"

"...but deep down she also knew that the damage was already done and nothing could be done to save her baby"

"...the doctor confirmed that she had a miscarriage due to overdose of sleeping pills and too much stress"

"...she blames herself for losing her baby"