so much more than a fan - billie eilish

we really need to talk

title: party favor - billie eilish

elle's POV

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"she wants to see me?" i ask. "yeah. she says she needs to talk to you in person because it's important and she misses you. now i don't know if that means she misses you in general or she misses you as her girl-" she explains but i cut her off. "hush!" i warn her in a whisper. "may doesn't know about billie." i tell her, keeping the soft tone. "well, you're going to have to tell her at some point" mum says with a small laugh. "i will. but i want her to hear it from me when i choose to tell her, not overhear my mum say that i dated a celebrity in my youth!" i respond, hoping that may is so focused that she can't hear me. "okay, okay. whatever you say" mum says, putting her hands up in defense. 

i talk to mum for a bit longer and eventually hang up. "hello belle femme" i smile as i wrap my arms around may's waist. "bonjour mon amour" she responds and continues painting. "i just got off the phone with mum. she says she's very excited to meet you" i rest my chin on her shoulder and plant a small kiss on her neck. "i'm excited to meet her too" she replies. "there's just one thing" i suck through my teeth, hoping her reaction isn't as bad as i'm imagining. "what is it?" she asks. "maybe we should talk when we don't have paint in your hand and i'm wearing my favorite coat" i suggest. "elle seriously, what is it?" she furrows her eyebrows and sets her brush down. "i don't think i've told you this before, but do you know who billie eilish is?" i question. "everybody knows who she is elle" she answers with a laugh. "well, when i was 18... i dated her" i tell her. "oh, that's actually really cool" she responds. "here's the thing, billie has a show in london this weekend and then a break for the rest of the year. and mum told her she could stay with her without thinking." i explain, taking a step back and bracing myself. "so what you're saying is, i get to spend several days with the billie eilish?" she asks with a wide smile. "i wasn't expecting you to be so excited." i say in a shocked tone. "well you're over her so it's fine." she shrugs. "you are right?" she asks after a bit of silence. 

honestly, if mum were to ask me that i'd answer truthfully and say i'm not. but due to this being my current girlfriend, i must say i am. billie has never left my head. ever. she's always running through my brain. 'what's billie doing? maybe i should call her and see how she's doing. i wonder if she dyed her hair again. maybe i should check her instagram. i wonder if she wants to see me. i want to see her.'

"yeah. totally. why do you think i'm here with you if i'm not over her?" i answer with a fake chuckle. "that's what i thought, i just wanted to make sure" she laughs along. "i'm going to go get changed and work a bit more. have fun with your painting" i smile and she pecks her lips to mine. 

i can't believe billie wants to see me. that's so strange to think. i should call her. for real this time. i grab my phone from my back pocket and press call on billie's contact without giving any second thought. 

"hello?" a manly accent answers. "oh, sorry. i thought you were someone else." i apologize. "i'm just kidding ellie. what's up?" billie giggles. "fuck you eilish" i laugh and roll my eyes. "when and where?" she responds. "shut up" i scoff. "how's france?" she questions. "it's alright but we really need to talk. i'm sure you know i'm c-" i start but billie cuts me off. "coming to london. yeah, your mom told me" she interrupts. "well, she told me you were going to be staying with her." i say, hearing her inhale sharply. "yeah. if you want i can find a hotel" she suggests. "you shouldn't have to. just know that i'm bringing my girlfriend and i don't want it to be awkward" i respond. "well now it will be! you said you don't want it to be awkward and by saying that you're cursing us!" she exclaims. "billie that's-" i start but she cuts me off once again. "nope, i'm already looking at hotels!" she denies. "you need to stop interrupting me!" i groan. "whatever. i already booked a hotel. but don't think that you're going to get away with not seeing me. we'll go out for coffee. sound good?" she asks. "i-" i try to say but for the millionth time, i get cut off. "no arguments. you're coming. i'll text you details. i gotta go but it was nice talking to you. bye ellie" she rushes and hangs up.

i sigh and start working on my novel. maybe an hour and a half goes by and i feel someone hug me from behind and start kissing my neck. "bonjour cornée cul" i laugh and she smacks my shoulder with a laugh. "how dare you? i'm just trying to show you love!" she exclaims. "j'aime aussi ton cul excité" i say, trying to hold in laughter. "rude. just rude." she shakes her head at me. i love the way that she's picked up on my vocabulary and habits. it's adorable. "you're cute though, so it's okay" i shrug and stand up from my seat. she wraps her arms around my waist and i drape my arms on her shoulders and pull her into a hug. "if i'm cute then you're plus mignon" she smiles at kisses my neck. "i'm not having this argument again" i sigh. "so i win?" she asks hopefully. "i guess so" i give up.  we walk to our room and lay down. i take out my phone and scroll through tik tok until i eventually fall asleep.

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a/n: i've been using google translate for all of the french parts because i don't remember a lot of the words so if something is wrong, it's not my fault it's google translate's.