R.I.P To the Old memories
* it was hard
Do you know what is it ! Letting go of the past specially the memories , that's the only think that make us known to each other's
They asked me how I felt
Behind the smile I shared when talking about it
Was a big black page . . .
The dark was the only thing I was able to see . Twisted and turned , looked here and there , to my left and to my right , thinking I can see the beach above my head and below , yet I could see nothing but darkness
Darkness shrouded me , it's thick cloud invading my vision and empowering my sight , turning everything colourless - black .There was no escape . There was no way out . There was just black . Everything was black . There was noticeable power that shook my invisible surroundings. I had no clue where I was or with who I was standing with . Nor did I know the reason I felt that way sometimes the silence was the peaceful thing I had in that way , coming down no share no bless , nothing but a rock trying to manipulate you as a clown , my presence in that foreign place was unknown. A place with a boy who doesn't know why he's living .
I felt distrusting and petrifying when I was with him I heard a voice whispering laced with softness weaving it's way through the blackness before it reaches my ear .
So cold to react
So warm to keep listening< you're safe with me >
I trusted the voice with full heart . Without knowing it , it sounded so unfamiliar. For some reason it seemed to trust reaching with a smooth voice , feeling a hot breath taking my ears , shutting my body with pleasure overtook me with silence and my fast paced beating heart . Choking me from my neck
"Why you still here"Was it me or was it him (the fault)
I was afraid of change , when he first asked me I throw Ive founded the true love just by hearing some kind words and getting treated in a small ways .
It was a joke from the beginning but as a small girl who never had the experience of getting manipulated I screamed of happiness saying I founded the one for me ... i was better than that , I deserved better in every way . I loved to try again and again so when I leave I'd be happy for trying even though failing . Thinking you can heal the broken peaces by picking them up forgetting your hurtled fingers scrolling the blood .You know that urge you get when you want to know something and suddenly out of nowhere the opportunity presents itself
I saw it when I discovered that he was cheating on me in my dreams I was happy because ( I knew damn well that my dreams represent reality ) .
It was hurtful but joyful at the same time .
A normal chilly Tuesday when I noticed him , walking with a fake smile . . .I through that love is just a geste a word , maybe attention but it was too small to be described as love
We were too young to understand too immature to learn it .
Maybe you experienced crushing or liking someone but love was too damn away from that .
In that moment when It happened I choosed myself over everyone , I started my healing phase
Do you know what I've discover tooThat I've never felt love or what does it feel like ! Cause it wasn't love it was just manipulation phase like a magical spell
Love is to big to Be descripted in that
Bad way ...
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WERE TOO YOUNG <3
AdventureIn a big city full of secrets . Teenagers living their life willing god damn it's their last year of high school . But it's all Maxi has ever known fear and honed from a young age to create her reality from her in-wakening dreams nobody can hide t...