WERE TOO YOUNG <3

" Chapitre 2 " : its a bomb

Will here we go again
It's a place where you only get noticed for some shit you normally have and it's hard to show it to the world as if it an award
Tiredness is one of the cycles that will be appearing in your daily routine
The stress the depression
It's like a bomb who will explore in any minute like if it was nothing
Suddenly I feel attacked by my future self
She's calling me will it's always in my head
How can you describe if you are fighting with yourself but with no energy
It's like waisting gaz without cooking
Nah it's a feeling I've been living in for a long
What make me feel like this
Maybe weirdness or I found people not interesting enough to make me appear that good
Not like In home where I appear very comfy at least I'm with my people
It's a very hard stuff for me
Specially when I used to have toxic people in my life and then they appear like I'm the one who done something to them
Tired of them chasing the cap I'm the fault in the whole situation
They come hurt me and they let me do the healing work as if I have the energy
The power that I hold inside me is something from another world that not everyone can call it out
Not enough
Vibrating in a high level , being spiritually awake is sooooo hard you get to dislike people and get angry a lot you can't found someone who matches with you or you found it and there's a difficulty to be close with them which it simply describe that having a white paper with pen scratching on in your mind make your life a whole mess you don't know what to do or what to say until it's done
Ladies and gentlemen it's what calls spiritual awakening
Personally I only get this feeling when I'm in a place full of people that I will see for a whole semester or a year (9months) describing this shit like being pregnant of depression
Hihi i know that's crazy isn't
Well I'll tell you what's worse
Being that version will you're not
It's a complete opposite
I feel confused and it's hurting me
It hurts so bad

I hope you're happy wish you best
You love her even though It hurts you
As much as I did even though it hurts me
Life continue even after you end up alone
No friends no lovers
It's about learning to make progress
It hurts those nights will you stay up tired with a book
Think about it's only 5 months and you're done
Go ahead everyday make process until you end up with all things done
If you said that you need to end up things undone
Put goals for every day

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A girl that dreamed of her dream life
Was there standing making every dream come true
Until they stopped her she though it was her family but actually it wasn't
It was her enemies
They used to tell her that she can't do it it just dreams
You know how she learned is by staying alone everytime she wants someone god shows her why she shouldn't or remove it from her life and keep it just like a museum so she can pass by and see who she was gonna have in her life
It's hard to be alone and lonely but by learning that it's a peaceful place she falls for it .
Than boom she's the girl she always wants to be
A girl that doesn't care if you hate her or like her she doesn't have a problem with it
It's because she loves herself to the point she doesn't have the energy to waisted on caring what people think it's their lose or it's a blessing more
That god removes every bug
She was too young to understand That love isn't a word it's a complication of words actions intuitions it's something you can act up
Will