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The heart has its reasons,
Which reasons knows nothing of.

~Blaise Pascal

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The following day I decided to pick up my dad's journal and reread one of the dating entries

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The following day I decided to pick up my dad's journal and reread one of the dating entries

𝚃𝚘 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚞𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚌𝚞𝚙

𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚞𝚙 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚋𝚘𝚢𝚜, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚜𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚒 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚍𝚘 𝚒𝚜 𝚐𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚍𝚟𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚒 𝚠𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚊 𝚐𝚞𝚗𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝 𝚒𝚗 𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚍, 𝚒 𝚊𝚖 𝚜𝚘 𝚜𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚢 𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚠𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚠 𝚞𝚙 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎, 𝚒𝚝 𝚙𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚎 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚞𝚢 𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚏 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑 𝚒𝚏 𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚞𝚛𝚝𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎, 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚊 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚐𝚎 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚋𝚢 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚍 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚊 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚛𝚢 𝚘𝚗, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚗𝚘 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚎𝚊𝚛 𝚘𝚛 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚐𝚎 𝚘𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚋𝚒𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚛𝚘𝚌𝚔 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚞𝚙𝚙𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚊𝚕𝚕, 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚊𝚍, 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜. 𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢'𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚏, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚠𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚠𝚎𝚒𝚐𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚒𝚗 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞, 𝚑𝚎𝚜 𝚐𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚊 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗𝚝 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚎𝚡𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚍, 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚌𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚞𝚜𝚞𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚑𝚒𝚍𝚎, 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚜 𝚐𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚠𝚊𝚢 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚗𝚘 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚒𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚎 𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑, 𝚒𝚏 𝚑𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚐𝚞𝚢 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚎𝚌𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚞𝚗𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚞𝚝𝚒𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚎, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚐𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚞𝚙 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚏 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚜, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎, 𝚓𝚘𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚊𝚏𝚎𝚝𝚢, 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚖𝚎 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚟𝚊𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚊 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚢 𝚘𝚛 𝚜𝚞𝚗𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚋𝚘𝚠𝚜, 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚞𝚗𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚍, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚐𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚏𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚞𝚙, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚏 𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚘𝚏 𝚒𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚒𝚣𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚏𝚒𝚡𝚎𝚜 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚜 𝚊 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚖𝚊𝚗, 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚕𝚞𝚌𝚔 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚋𝚞𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚌𝚞𝚙, 𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚋𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚏𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚖𝚊𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚖𝚊𝚖𝚖𝚊 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚝𝚘𝚕𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝.

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