WHO ARE YOU?

LIGHT SHOWER

Am i boring you?
Ya'll should send this to Jenna so she can read it, and she can fall in love with my delulu ass 

Jenna felt nervous, as they both sat outside, Jenna had taken another chair for Y/n, Y/n scanned the place seeing bottles of wine and cigarette buds in a ashtray, she frowned, all her questions being answered with that

All those night, wondering if Jenna was feeling the same, if she was okay, if she was sleeping, if she was acting as if nothing had happened, all those questions...answered with just one look at the balcony, her heart broke, wishing she could have hugged her all those nights she was feeling the same

Jenna took a deep breath as they sat down, she stared at the girl in front of her

"Before you say anything Y/n....i'd like to start if that's okay with you?"

Y/n nodded feeling surprised smiling softly at her

Jenna smiled back "Okay....First of all i'd like to start by saying thank you" Y/n frowned at this with a giggle "Oh?? Why?" Jenna rolled her eyes shaking her head "Let me finish" Y/n put her arms up fighting her smile, again this is what Jenna loved, being so comfortable around her, so much that she could talk about her feelings without any fear of being judged

"Thank you for not kicking me out of your life and being here, I'm sorry for putting you through so much, it was really unnecessary i think " She paused as she said softly, the gaze on Y/n softened hearing Jenna, she nodded for her to continue " Your the most real person i know, even though i thought you weren't for a while...i realized that at the end, it's who you are with me, You've always been you with me, thank you..." Jenna put her finger up for Y/n to shut up, who was really not saying anything, she was crying as tears rolled down her cheeks

"I was scared... you have so much responsibility...i mean your literally the fucking queen, and that scared me, i don't know...i didn't know if was ready for that? and ..i let that get the best of me, i could've handled it differently...i regret putting us through that

You are the light I've been searchin' for forever ,feels like, man, I've really never felt the rain, buried in the desert, didn't think I'd push through the dirt...You just cleansed me like a waterfall, you came, I'm screamin' like a kettle on a stove . You cranked the heat up, I was cold , My past grew mold around my heart and all my anger, sadness, regret disappeared

It's madness, I'm not used to all this water, love, it's true but you made me want to

Plan out my last days on earth"

Jenna said as she tried not to cry, taking deep breaths, she scooted closer to Y/n as she grabbed her hand

"I never once was treated right, you're what I'm missing in my life, people see me as something they want, something to use, but the moment we met, and we started getting to know each other, i noticed that you weren't like that, you saw me, You didn't See THE JENNA ORTEGA " She giggled with sniffle "You didn't even know who i was and once you found out...nothing changed, but when i found out who you were, i did change and i'm so sorry for that, my walls were up, and i wasn't thinking, I love you Y/n You're a shower of light I'd devour any day of the week"

Jenna caressed her cheek staring in her eyes, those eyes she missed so much 

Y/n was a crying mess, her eyes wouldn't stop crying, but they were happy tears, hearing Jenna express herself, she leaned in her touch as she shut her eyes briefly

"I...have no words... I..." She squeezed Jenna's hands trying to calm down, so many emotions going on "Damn..." They both giggled, Jenna was determined to get this girl back all though she knew that wasn't going to be too hard, but still she didn't want to be too sure

"Jenna...i know that you know...that i changed the...law, I did it for you, I know it's scary...trust me i know, i didn't and i don't want you going through that, Duties that really aren't yours to begin with...i'd love for you to continue your career and if your ever want to do duties, your more than welcomed, this is me thinking way ahead of time" She giggled feeling a bit embarrassed admitting that, Jenna wiggled her eyebrows at her

"So you wanna marry me, that's what i'm understanding" She said wiggling her eyebrows making Y/n roll her eyes

"I could never kick you out of my life, you've left a mark..." Jenna froze a bit, blocking out what Y/n said, her heart beating fast, Y/n didn't deny it, she didn't say no, she did think about that...she wanted to squeal... but she kept herself calm

"And...Your not THE JENNA ORTEGA to me, i love that i didn't even know who you were and yout cocky ass wanted to give me a picture " She snickered making Jenna push her softly "Shut uuuup " They both laugh

"Jenna, I see you, Jenna Marie, and i love you so much, i spent night wondering...if you were feeling the same...and now that i know that you were, i never want you to feel that way ever again, i don't ever want to hurt you, for you to be hurt, by our relationship, I can promise you and guarantee that I'll always love you no matter what, and that i'll always look out for your happiness"

Jenna cried hearing this, sad that she had blocked all the other things she said and focusing on this girl wanted to marry her, never did she think of marriage until now

"Be my girlfriend again?" Jenna asked, Y/n nodded without a doubt "Took you long enough" They chuckled, Jenna smiled as their foreheads touch, they stared deep in to their eyes

"I missed you so much" Y/n said not taking her eyes off of hers, seeing it expand

"I missed you too, I'm never letting you go" Jenna smiled seeing it react to her words, caressing her cheek as she slowly pulled her in for a kiss, their eyes fluttered shut as their lips collided, more tears were escaping as they kissed

Both of them thinking the same thing, Oh how much they missed each other, their kisses, their lips ached for them to be together once again...