How could you answer that damn question Jade? It’s not Harry, it’s Miller. I did not notice na nasa likod ko pala sya. And again, he grins so stupidly. How could he play on me? Nakatingin lang sa kanya si Milky at Harry. Nakacross yung both arms nya sa may chest niya. Ang yabang talaga niyang pumorma. Bigla niyang hinubad yung suot niyang shades at tumingin sa akin na parang layon na manlalapa.
“Neris. You are stupid!” then he laughs like a devil. Sa inis ko, I stand up at umalis ng cafeteria. Nagwoworry ako na baka ipagkalat nya sa buong cafeteria ang nalaman niya. At bago ko mareach ang door. He said,“Don’t worry stupid, since we are in a public place hindi ko ipagkakalat ang secret mo. But I’ll still make your life miserable as promise.”
Haisst! Grabe na to. I cannot take this anymore. Does he mean that he can do something worse than this? Chatting with him is bad, meeting him is worse and what he can do is worst. I think I’m gonna die. Hindi ko na sya pinansin at nagdaredaretso na lang ako.
“Milky, he is my worst nightmare” kinakabahan na rin si Milky para sa akin. Sikat na sikat pa naman si Miller kahit na bago lang sya dito.
“Don’t think too much. You are getting so paranoid” Sabi sa akin ni Harry.
“Paano ako hindi mapaparanoid, may pinanghahawakan sya against me” Mahirap ba talagang banggain ang kinalaban ko?
After ng class, dumeretso na ko sa library kahit freeday ko ngayon. Since it’s been a stressful day, kailangan ko ng peace of mind. I stayed at the library. I make myself busy doing library works. Mas okay ako kapag nasa library ako, hindi nasisira ang araw ko.
Pagkatapos, umuwi na ko. Hindi rin ako gaanong nakakakain. Wala pala si Mommy nag Asian Cruise with her boyfriend. Second Child ako, My ate Jamina is living in UK with her british husband. Isang taon na din syang happily married. The youngest is Jean Cyrish, fourth year high school. Naiiwan lang kaming dalawa ni Cyrish with Manang Ising, our maid. Sanay na kami about Mommy’s out of town or out of the country. And yung binibigay saking monthly allowance ni Daddy and Mommy, nasasave ko sa bank. Yung expenses ko I get it sa pinagtatrabahuhan ko. I’m planning to buy a condo unit for myself, konti na lang afford ko na sya. I don’t ask money. Nahihiya din kasi ako kay Dad even I know that he can afford the things I like. I really want to be independent, kasi iba yung feeling if I can stand on my own. I want Mom and Dad to be proud of me. And if I have my own house, I can do whatever I want. I’ll be free.
When I get into my room, natulog na ko. Since ayoko na namang masira ang araw ko sa bwiset na Miller na yan. Kapag naiisip ko sya kumukulo ang dugo ko.
