Natasha/Scarlett one shot

Premiere S.J

Scarlett POV
It was the premiere of Avengers: Endgame and I had invited Y/N to join me. She had participated in these kinds of events before so I wasn't too worried for her. She knew how to act in front of the cameras and usually left me to do all the talking, saying if she didn't say anything, nothing could go wrong. Gosh, what did I do to get such a considerate girlfriend.

After all the mini interviews while walking down the carpet, we are finally in the theatre watching Endgame. It slipped my mind that Natasha was going to, well, jump off and Y/N wasn't going to take it too well. Natasha is her comfort character, being a human and part of the team fighting against all the aliens motivated her.

It reached the part of the time heist and I kept seeking glances at her every few seconds. Despite not being an actress, she can hide her feelings very well and bring out another emotion (the fate of normal society these days), I couldn't tell what she was thinking. Even when we are shopping and I can see her staring intently at (something you like), she would say she doesn't need it or was just looking and waiting for me and direct my attention to something else.

When the time heist ended, I took another glance at her and she was okay? I had expected her to let a few tears out even though I knew she doesn't cry much, but her face did not change from the beginning. Did it really not affect her?

The movie ended with Robert's big scene and everyone started to move to the after party. (idk if there is) I asked Y/N if she was alright but she smiled at me and said she was fine and there was nothing to worry about. 

Your POV
When the scene moved to Vormir, I had already guessed what was going to happen. I could sense Scarlett glancing at me even though I didn't look back. When Clint and Natasha were fighting over who was going to jump, I had already shut myself off. I kept telling myself, think of something else, think of something else, think of your work other than this. My eyes were still facing the screen but I was not watching. The hardest part was trying to cut out the hearing, it's not like I could just cover my ears.

I had done this many times when watching movies at home with Scarlett but never in this crowd. Suddenly, there was applause coming from everyone and I finally stopped chanting to myself. With Scarlett's waist in my arms, we went to the after party and I got the same drink as her. I was really tired from all the constant state of mind I was in and I wanted to get away. Scarlett kept asking if I was okay and I told her I was fine and there was nothing to worry about.

After finishing my first drink I told Scarlett that I'd head home first.

"I can leave with you now." Scarlett replied.

"No. This is a big movie. People would want you here. You need to mingle with them, you can't just leave because of me." I took Scarlett's job very seriously. 

"You know I don't care about what they think."

"For me. Stay." I said with a serious voice and I could see Scarlett was taken aback by my tone. "I'll be fine." I gave her a quick kiss before leaving the venue.

Both of us didn't drive because we knew we were going to drink. I flagged a cab and went back home. I sat on the couch without changing. My mind went back to Vormir, even though I didn't see her touch the ground, I knew she did. It's not like she could have jumped up.

I lightly slapped my face to psych myself up. I knew I was not my normal self. I was always conscious of I am acting so I knew I was off. I need to be back to normal before Scarlett comes back.

I need to stop thinking of her. I need to draw a line before Infinity War or even Civil War for god sake. 

Scarlett POV
I was still worried for Y/N. My mind was not at the party, but with her. "Scarlett!" Elizabeth waved her hand in front of me.

I snapped back to reality. "Sorry."

"Are you okay? You never drift off in times like this."

"Y/N left early so I was thinking about her." I knew I could be truthful to Lizzie.

"You know you can leave early."

"I know, but she asked me to stay."

"I'm sure enough time has passed to allow her to think whatever she needed to." Lizzie took my drink off my hand. "Now go." I thanked Lizzie and gave her a hug before making my way home.

As I got back home, the lights were not on and I saw Y/N sleeping on the couch without changing her clothes. I went round her to give her a kiss but I saw tears streaming down her face. "Y/N! Y/N." I tapped on her shoulders.

She opened her eyes "You died." She said softly.

"What? No, I'm here." I held her hands as she sat up.

"Not you, Natasha."

I sighed, I should have known she was not going to be fine. "She did it for the world, for the universe." I pulled her in for a hug. "She died, but I'm here and I'm her. I'm going to protect you." I put my hand on her back and did soothing rubs for her. "I love you and I'm never going to leave you."

"I love you too." She said as she tried to calm down from her crying.

It is a huge couch so there is space for the both of us to lie together but we were hugging so close together that we only occupied half of it. I continued to rub her back as she slept. I should have known she was putting a brave front for me. She never liked anyone seeing her being vulnerable.

It's going to be a tough few days/weeks/months/years for her to get over Natasha's death.

Written on 12/9/2021
Posted on 8/10/2021

Ngl, my heartache while writing this. I had to keep thinking about the Vormir scene.  I'm still in denial btw.

I kind off like this chapter.

I should probably change my uploading schedule. I'm too tired to wait until midnight to post this.