forbidden love

Chapter fifteen

Tw: Ed
Madison Harper
"What are you talking about Rafe?" I said with a scared tone of voice. Lily may wanna kill me but she was my best friend and honesty I don't want to be apart of a murder. That's crazy.

"We have to do it. It's the only way we both won't die and we will he protected." He said standing up and walking closer to me. I backed up from him and stared into his eyes with fear. I felt sick to my stomach. Like I wanted to throw up.

"I- I can't." I whispered. He gave me a look if sadness and sighed.

"Listen. You won't do the killing. I will." He said and that made me feel even worse.

"Rafe- I- I cant do that even if im not the one committing the murder I will also not watch you do it." I said as tears flooded my eyes, making my vision go blurry. My face puffy and red as my head was hurting and my eyes burned.

"You have to. It's our only way!" He said holding his hands out.

"Then what? We live with the guilt and regret for the rest of our lives! I don't understand why we just don't go to the cops-" He interrupted. We were now arguing.

"Because they aren't going to do anything Madison! What are you not understanding?!" He shouted causing me to flinch.

"We can't kill her! I won't let you do it." I shouted back as tears spilled out of my eyes.

"You have to go through with it Madison! Please. You don't have to watch. Just help me out here! I don't want anything to happen to you. Your the most important person in my life I need you!" He said as tears filled his eyes. I looked at him with guilt before pulling him into a hug.

"Okay fine. Ill do it." I said squeezing my eyes from the burning sensation attempting to relieve the pain. We pulled away now staring into each others eyes.

"Whats our plan?" I said and he smirked. Maniac much?

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"Seriously Rafe that's your plan?" I said giving him an 'are you serious' look. He looked around the room like a dumb ass before nodding.

"Pretty much." He said and I rolled my eyes in frustration.

"Okay look how about we lure her somewhere where there's no people and use me as the bait. Then you come out and just shoot her?" I said and he thought about it for a second before nodding.

"My plan was a bit better but I guess." He said and I laughed pushing him playfully.

"Whatever." I whispered. "At least mine was more simple unlike you who wanted to fucking use a party as an excuse to lure her somewhere. With so many people and then kidnap her. Like what kinda plan is that?"

"A fun one. Yours is boring but I guess." He said walking back into our bedroom. Whatever.

I can't believe we are about to kill someone and are acting to casual about it. Are we actual sociopaths? Maybe. Possibly yes. This just made me sick to my stomach.

"This will all happen at 8pm tomorrow night okay? I know this is hard but this is how it has to be. Im sorry." He says and I nod as another tear rolled down my cheek. He wiped it away placing a kiss on top of my head.

"Lets go to bed." He said.

"Yeah." I agreed and we walked upstairs changing into our pjs which I just out on some grey joggers and a white cropped shirt. He put on the same colored joggers and a black T shirt.  We drifted off to sleep in each others arms.

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"Morning sleepy head." Rafe smirked causing me to jump slightly. Today was the day we will commit a murder. Im not excited about that at all.

"You scared me Rafe don't do that!" I said throwing a pillow at his face. He caught it and threw it back at me, the silk of the pillow case hitting my face as I sat there unfazed and Rafe laughed at me. Whatever. I rolled my eyes getting out of bed and rubbing my sore eyes. Rafe approached me as he towered over my small figure.

"Hop on my back." He said motioning me to get on his back. Seriously. I rubbed my eyes giving him an annoyed look.

"It's too early for this shit Rafe." I laughed and he stayed there. I groaned finally jumping on his back as he walked downstairs. He pretended like he was going to drop me causing me to hold onto him tighter.

"Fuck off dip shit." I said rolling my eyes as he laughed.

"Your lucky your my girlfriend. I would've dropped you for telling me to fuck off." He said sarcastically and I rolled my eyes with a smile.

He set me down on the chair of the island as he grabbed some ready made breakfast from the fridge. I stared at the plate in front of me hesitantly. I gulped still staring at it as Rafe already dug into it.

He gave me a concerned look as he noticed I haven't touched a single thing on my plate.

"Hey- listen I know what's going to happen today is a lot but you have to eat." He said and I shook my head side to side pushing the plate away from me.

"It's-" I sighed not ready to talk about the topic.

"If it's personal you don't need to share it baby." He said looking at me with sadness. I did want to tell him it's just hard.

"No it's fine- I just uhm I have an eating disorder." I said not noticing my voice cracked and Rafe looked at me with so much guilt.

"Im so sorry I didn't know. I wouldn't have said anything if I knew that was why." He said rubbing my back in a circular motion.

"It's fine I just never like talking about it but im okay. I just- let's move on yes?" I said with a sarcastic smile.

"Are you sure your okay?" He said and I nodded. Honestly I wasn't. All of this had me going fucking insane. Was it wrong for me to be a witness of a murder with my boyfriend? Especially if she was my bestfriend. Even though she wants to kill me? Im so confused. I honestly don't want to do this.

a/n
i expected better from my writing but its also 1 am and im tired as hell so i guess this is as best as I can do. I wrote like 3 chapters today so next chapter will be the best one! Just wait. The book is coming to an end very soon. Hope you guys are liking it so far.

-a<3