101 Real Stories

61. My First Love

I have a cousin who is 10 years elder than me. 
She was very pretty and kind. Her name was Yuki. She used to call me Akkun, coming from Atsushi.

She used to live nearby and even though our age difference, we used to play together a lot. We were very close and I used to like her a lot. When she was an adult and started to work, our meeting reduced but we were still close.

When I was in middle school, she got married. I had a feeling for her so I felt bad about this news. After getting married, she moved in to new place which was far so we eventually stopped meeting. 

After a long time, she came to our house. It was after so long and she looked very happy. They were in living room and while she was talking with parents, so I went off to go to my room. Surprisingly Yuki came after me. "It's been so long, Akkun," she said and I just replied shortly, "yeah," and was going up. 

"Hey, Akkun," she said coming behind me and gripped my wrist. It was just gentle hold, but I got surprised and before I could think, I forcefully pulled off from her hold. 

It was just that moment. 

She lost balance and fell down from the stairs. I couldn't move from the spot.

My parents came rushing from the noise and they called for ambulance. Then I got to know, Yuki was pregnant and she had come to give that news. 

But she had miscarriage because of falling from the stairs. 

In the hospital room, I apologized countless times and I couldn't stop crying thinking about what I had done. But Yuki never accused me of it. "It's okay, Akkun..." Even though this was my fault, she never spoke what really happened to anyone. 

She soon recovered and when I went to higher class, the studies got tougher and we couldn't meet. We stopped meeting. 

I graduated university and after changing girlfriend after girlfriend, I finally met the right person and I proposed her. We got married shortly after and Yuki was there too. "Congratulations, Akkun," she had wished. I always felt guilty towards her and she wishing me made me cry like a baby. 

I started being in contact with Yuki again slowly. 

Soon, my wife got pregnant. I was very happy about this and along my parents, I had informed about it to Yuki too. 

It was 9th month into pregnancy. While I was in office, I got a call saying my wife was taken to hospital. 

I rushed quickly and got to know both mother and child was in danger. On the bench, my parents and Yuki was there. They had visited home. 

"Your wife, she fell from stairs," Yuki said slowly as I was sitting on the bench. "Akkun," Yuki kept her hand on my shoulder. "You know, I haven't forgiven you for that incident," she said in very low voice and I looked at her surprised. She had a smile that froze me to cores. 

"I wonder if they can save the baby," she smiled. 

I was remembering I had shifted my wife's room in first floor to avoid the stairs at as much as possible as her stomach was getting bigger.