Wish I were dead

11

Flashback-- Court of Marseilles, 1002 AD

we are at a celebration in the yard

Sofia and I were once again speaking to Olivia and Oliver

My memory of the twins go back to when we were unhappy. We had lost our son and they helped us...distracted us. Everyone in Marseilles was in the thrall of the Count's arrogant son Tristan, his sister, the lady Aurora, and of course the twins

Oliver was telling us about his resent hunting expedition with his father

They knew what we were and it excited them; they wanted to be like us

"What's it like?" Olivia asks after he's done speaking "Being like you"

"It's okay" I mumble

"don't mind him" Sofia sighs "It's not all good. The blood that we need to survive. The hunger is awful"

"Ya, but to be super fast and strong" Oliver says

how could I tell them that I dismembered people

I was again dismembering someone but Olivia comes out of the shadows

Olivia wasn't scared by things such as this

"You weren't meant to see this" I sigh

Olivia hugs me still covered in blood "I'm not afraid you won't hurt me. We should clean this up"

my eyes fall onto her "You should be afraid of me...I'm a monster" then I take the body and zoom away

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I find Olivia in my apartment when I get back the following day

"Are you stalking me?" I ask taking my jacket off

"Nope" she laughs "But Tristan or Lucien could pop out any moment to try to kill you"

"I'm an Original" I scoff "They can't just kill me"

Olivia chuckles "Well, maybe I just couldn't get your stubble out of my mind"

I jump over the couch to sit on it and put my arm around her shoulder "I knew it"

she rolls her eyes

oh she's going to roll her eyes for another reason here soon

she's going to beg to be my toy

she's just going to beg... for me

finally she sighs "I've decided I'm staying in your apartment"

oh "You staying in my bed too? The second room is off limits"

Olivia smiles "I guess I am....do keep your hands to yourself. I remember how handsy you get at night"

wonder if she's every going to figure out I broke my sire line about two hundred years ago

"Remeber when I turned?" she asks

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Flashback-- Court of Marseilles, 1002 AD

"Olivia" I say as we meet in a dark alley "You've heard what happened to Lucien?"

"That he is now one of you" Olivia asks "I have heard; Lucien is not being very quiet about it"

a chuckle escapes my throat "He is quiet like Nik and Kol in that way. Do you still wish to be like me?"

her face turns red "If it is okay with Sofia that you turn me. If not she could turn me and you could turn Oliver"

my finger lifts her face towards me "We've spoken and we have decided I will turn you. My family mustn't find out though"

"Are you going to do it now?"

letting my face change I bite into my hand holding it out for her

at first she scrunches up her nose

it's cute not as Sofia but...

then she latches on

letting go my blood drops from her mouth

in one fowl swoop I snap her neck

then I pick her up moving quickly to Sofia's and I's chambers

once in I find Oliver in the same state

about an hour later they both wake

a human girl sits in the corner

"Have at her" I say pointing to her

going over their fangs pultrude and they bite down harshly

after a couple gulps Olivia stops but Oliver doesn't

Oliver keeps going until the girls limbs and head come off

he is like me

Sofia whistles "Try keep that from the family"

"We could always leave" I grumble "Don't you want to go to a beach or something?"

she gives me a look

I stick my hands up

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Klaus, Kol, and Elijah have called me over to the compound

now they are explaining things to me

"And now I reap what I sow" Klaus sighs "I should have killed him in that chapel"

"Yet you played right alongside him, succumbing to your savageries" Elijah clicks "He brought out the worst in you Niklaus"

I sigh "am I about to hear you two argue again? Because If I am I would like to leave. I have a girl in my apartment"

Elijah gives me a look "The moment we have that weapon, we will end him. He and Tristan"

Klaus smiles "It's good to hear that word again. "We""

"It's purely circumstantial, let me assure you, brother" big brother roll his eyes "This is not forgiveness"

Klaus looks hurt

I snort "You hurt his feelings, oh this was worth coming over here for. Now would someone fucking explain why I am over here"

"A weapon that could kill us" Kol says slowly like I'm stupid

"Right" I say "Have you three ever considered I didn't want to be alive?"

"What about your line" Elijah asks then his eyes become understanding "You knew about the sire line; Your sire line isn't connected any longer"

"Ding, ding, ding" I exhale "We have a winner. Do tell Lucien if he wants to try out his weapon to come find me. Oh and let's not tell Olivia that I did that; I rather like her hold up in my apartment"

"You always did have a thing for her" Kol pitches in "Everyone knew if Sofia ever left you, you would run to her. The little wench"

I turn just before I leave "You should be nicer to her; if it weren't for her I would have gone longer then three hundred years without emotions" then I leave

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