Mattheo Riddle 𝖔𝖓𝖊 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖙𝖘 🩸🔪💚

hurting

TW
Self harm

I hate it, I hate how I feel , I hate my face, my life, I hate doing this to myself I just hate it. I told my self one more time but I can't stop it's gotten to the point where I can't even let my boyfriend see me without a long sleeve shirt on..........
I said one last time two days ago but today was so bad I felt like I had to, like this was my only option to stop this feeling, the only way I could stop this constant aching.

As soon as I got to my dorm I put all my stuff down and made sure my roommate wasn't there and I went to my drawer then to the bathroom, I rolled my sleeves up and with tears going down my face I put the blade to my arm and pressed down, I sat on the floor and did it 3 more times until I heard someone say my name

"Y/n?" The familiar voice called out
I didn't respond but I got up to lock the bathroom door not wanting him to see me like this

"What?" I spoke sitting back down on the floor trying to stop crying
When I heard the steps get closer

"Are you ok love? You seemed upset in class" he said trying to open the door

"I'm fine I'll be out in a minute Mattheo" I answered standing up to clean my self off. After a few minutes I went out with him, he was sat on my bed as soon as he noticed I was out he smiled and pulled me to him

"Hey baby"he softly said while kissing my lips "hi" I spoke and sat next to him. We talked for a little bit until he needed to use the bathroom. I waited for him to come out soon after he did

"What the f*ck is this!!??" He spoke in a frustrated tone. "What's wh-" I started to say until I looked up and he had my box (idk I'm pretty sure you keep them in a box)

"I- um" I stuttered not know what to say

"Why, why are you doing this to yourself" he said I noticed his eyes watering so my eyes started too

"Because....." I mumbled turning my head away from him " why y/n why didnt you tell me something was going on" he put the box down then walking towards me and sitting down grabbing me.

"You wouldn't understand Mattheo" I said wiping my face

"You still could have told, I would've helped you princess" he said pulling me closer I hugged him back and cried in his shoulder

"I'm sorry"

I don't know how to end this . I really hope none of you guys have to ever go through this or if you have I hope you get better,

Stay safe