"I'd let you break my heart a million times until we get it right."
In which; Daphne promised herself to stay away from Caitlin, the girl who broke her heart and left her alone in the middle of the night. She moved across the country just to stay a...
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"Why'd you have to make me want you? Why'd you have to give me nothing back?"
daphne
present; narrative
Friends has always been a conflicting word for me. When I was younger all I wanted to do was make friends, even after talking to someone once I considered them my friend. As long as we didn't hate each other I considered us friends. As I got older friends became a closed off term, obviously I was outgoing and loved being social but very few people were my friends. My definition of friends is someone I can talk to without judgment, someone I want to spend my time with and someone who builds me up. Caitlin was always all of those things, even before we started dating I considered her my best friend but now calling her my friend just didn't feel right.
I didn't want to have to say that me and Caitlin were now friends but it was better than explaining the long in depth history we had so I had to settle with friends. The problem is I felt like I was betraying myself, Caitlin was no longer my definition of a friend. She broke me down and left me that way. I couldn't even pick up the pieces on my own, relying solely on other people to mend my broken heart. After you go through hell with a friend it's always going to be difficult going back to that place of trust.
Dakota was probably the least impressed when I called him to catch him up. Let's just say he was so unhappy that he hung up and didn't talk to me for a few days. As much as he tried to just seem like a protective older brother I knew a part of him would always love Caitlin. She was family to all of us and to him it was like another sister he always wanted. A sister that understood sports and laughed at all his dumb jokes. A part of him grieved the breakup with me, I lost my girlfriend but he lost his sister and I knew he still hadn't forgiven her for the pain she caused us both.
"Before you step foot in my car I want no word of Caitlin, understood?" Dakota screamed at me, rolling down the passenger window as I jogged to his car. For the first time since I moved back we had finally found time to hang out which consisted of him yelling at me before I even got in the car. Don't you just love siblings?
I grabbed the door, opening it and jumping into the passenger seat.
"She's not the devil Dakota." I tried to laugh it off, Caitlin and I had figured it out so now it was ok to talk about her.
"I don't care what she is but you've been talking about her for days straight and I don't like it."
Fuck off I have not. Had I seriously been talking about her nonstop? Is that why all the girls smirked when we passed Caitlin and her friends, slightly nudging me towards her.
I just kept quiet, leaving him to nod satisfied that he finally opened my eyes. I was falling for Caitlin's tricks way too fast and he knew it better than anyone. The only noise in the car was his aggressive rap music, yes a white boy from Iowa loved hardcore rap.
