The Darkness Within: Vol. 4

Victim

I can't get it out of my head
It's way too loud in my headspace
Why do I feel so angry?
I'm a gentle soul, everybody agrees

So why do I feel this way?
I wish you'd leave me all alone
I'm not the bad guy, I won't take the blame
But you're so mean and it feels so true

It's just a feeling with no home address
Nowhere it's coming from and nowhere to go
It makes me feel like an evil little thing
Held up under truth's eyes of scrutiny

I don't want you anymore
You've been gone for so long
Then out of nowhere you reappear
And make me feel like I'm in the wrong

Suddenly I need to blame
I can't risk my own good name
I need to save face, somehow, some way
I can't risk it, the fall is too great

What if it's true, those things they say
What if I am the one to blame?
I can't apologise enough to you
Because you'll always find something new

Suddenly I feel I need to breathe
I can't create anything good anymore
I feel like this is my villain arc
I want to break and destroy everything

But no that's not me, that's the voice inside
The little thing clutching onto something inside
That's not what I want to do at all
Though why do I feel like it might feel good?

Cue the dramatic music, let's set the stage
Call the mighty hero to battle my rage
Passersby are watching, some are unfazed
This isn't me, I promise, it's just a little rage

But wait, this is internal
I can aim this hot inferno
So back to you I'll turn them
These guns of war and burn them

I don't want to fight anyone
I don't want to break anything
I don't want to destroy or burn

I just really need a hug...