Miscellanea

Overdue

I never thought I would write again

after all those years I found myself looking back

wishing I was better

wishing I could have done better

wishing it could have been better for us

because even though I know I was at fault,

I never thought you were this hurt too

And I know I should not have written about us

because I am aware that I could self-prophecize the worst scenarios

But I cannot help but think about our future

How I thought we could be endgame

But I know now that I was alone building that future for us

So maybe I would start here again

I would begin with our ending

And I would use all this hurt to make something new

to make something true

to start something overdue