Running with Scissors

Eight.

     I was absolutely positively heart broken; I wanted to scream, cry, maybe even laugh at how stupid I had been. I was already having just a horrible night and that had to be the cherry on it. I couldn't go sleep on my bus so I went and knocked on Upon A Burning Bodies they didn't have a huge crew so I figured they'd let me stay the night on there, plus Danny was always keeping an eye on me which was nice.
      "Hey Stella, what's up?" Danny asked as he let me onto the bus.
     "Do you think it's at all possible for me to stay on your guys bus tonight?" I asked him feeling slightly nervous.
     "Yes of course. Anything for my favorite photographer." Danny smiled, then led me to their back lounge were the couch back there pulled out into a bed, he grabbed a few blankets for me and a pair of pajama pants. "If you need anything else, my bunk is the middle right one. Sleep tight Stell."
     I gave him a hug, thanked him as he closed the door. I changed out my skinny jeans into the pants Danny brought me and climbed into the bed. That's when I started crying uncontrollably, how could Devin do this to me I thought maybe he was falling in love but that's what I get for being a sucker. For not finding out if we were exclusive; he could have been hooking up with chicks in different cities and I'd have never known. I let these thoughts take over my head as I finally fall asleep.
     I woke up and I could hear that all of UABB was awake, in my sleep I pulled the hoodie up over my nose because it had smelled like Devin. I wanted to take it off but the bus was really cold and I didn't have any of my stuff with me. I got out of the bed and changed back into my jeans. I cleaned up the back lounge putting the bed away and folding the blankets, I went into the front  of the bus where the entire band was hanging out.
     "Hey Stell how'd you sleep?" Danny smiled at me as he asked that.
     "Pretty good," I was pretty much lying but it was easier to lie, "what time is it?"
     "Almost 6pm. We've been in Buffalo all day, " Tito spoke up looking away from the video game he was playing with Sal and Ruben.
     "Well thank you guys so much for letting me stay here last night, I truly appreciate it." I smiled and gave them all hugs.
     I walked outside and it was pretty chilly, I knew I looked like a complete and utter mess but I didn't really care. I walked onto the I See Stars bus and conveniently everyone was there playing video games and having a laugh. Devin pop right up and walked over to me, he tried kissing me and I turned my head.
"Stella what's the matter?" He looked at me with pleading eyes.
I wanted to laugh in his face what was the matter oh so many things and the fact that he didn't know made want to cry even more instead I just went with lying, "Nothing. Just wanna take a shower."
"Well where were you last night? I was up in the bunk really worried." Oh he was worried, I was so over this whole situation.
"I'm not your girlfriend, Devin so it shouldn't matter. Now if you'll excuse me I need to shower." I walked past him and straight into the bathroom. How could he not know what he did, I turned the water on, sat on the floor and just started crying all over again. I couldn't waste a bunch of water so after 5 minutes I got up and took a shower. I felt a bit better, as I got out of the shower I warped a towel around my body then one to pull up my hair. I looked into the mirror and my eyes were extremely blood shot.
     I walked out into the bus and straight to the back lounge to find something to wear and finally grabbed my cellphone. I had so many texts from my mom, Craig, different members of I See Stars all asking if I was okay and where I was. I pretty much ignored all those texts and texted the one person I probably shouldn't have but I was hurt and just needed some affection really.

Me: Hey, what are you doing tonight?

I sent the text and began getting ready I decided I wanted jaws to drop. I put on my favorite floral crop top and really tight skinny jeans this outfit showed off a bit a skinny but not enough that it was slutty. I curled me hair and checked my phone, I had the one text I'd been waiting for.