"FUCK." I say and slam my head into the steering wheel after trying to start the car over and over again. I get out and try to look at the engine one more time. I pushed my car to the grassy curb after the deer ran off and my car started sputtering.All my thoughts are of Jason. I can't clear my head enough to figure out what to do next. I open the passenger door and sit down while I dig through my glove box till I find it. Hidden in a glasses case is two joints and a lighter. I take one out and the lighter. I take a shaky breath and another tear falls down my face and I get mad at myself for it.
Just one hit. One hit is all I need.
I lean on the passenger seat with my feet dangling out of the car while I light the joint. I take a long drag that burns my lungs and blow it out. I feel my throat and lungs burn and I cough for a second. I can't stop coughing and I feel like I'm about to throw up. I take a shaky breath and feel my high hit me like a bus. My tolerance is so low that I immediately feel better. I feel myself relax, like all the pain melted away from my body. I lic my finger and put out the joint, gently tapping it until it stops smoking. Then I put it back with the lighter in the glove box and pull out my phone to call Dad.
"Hello?" He answers. I can hear the tiredness in his voice.
"I hit a deer on the way to the cultural building." I say trying to focus on sounding somber. "Can you come pick me up please?"
"Yeah." He says. "You called at just the right time."
"See you in a bit." I say and hang up. I sigh and lean back in my chair. Then it hits me, my moment of realization. It happened. It happened to me. I felt a tear roll down my cheek and I buried my face in my hands to control my breathing. The pain never stopped. I only got used to it, but it never stopped. I'm never going to let another person hurt me like that, ever again. Chills go down my body and I get this sick feeling at the pit of my stomach that I can't shake. Thank god I'm high right now. A twig snaps and I look up to see Paul coming out of the tree line. He rushes over to me. I really didn't want to deal with anyone right now. I want to be alone. I just want to sleep, and snack around.
"Are you okay?" He asks. I look at him and nod my head. "What happened? I heard you crying while I was on patrol."
"I wasn't crying." I lie, not even trying to wipe the tears from my face. "I just hit a deer. I'm fine."
"What's that smell?" He asks and sniffs the air before looking down at me with a scowl on his face.
"I also hit a skunk." I lie and mentally roll my eyes at his reaction. I hope he believes me because weed does smell a lot like skunk spray. I remember smelling a skunk one time and thought of weed. When I was a kid I smelt weed and thought of skunk spray. I should make a meme of that.
"You're lying." He grits and snaps me out of my thoughts. I look up at him and my eyes feel tight. His face is hard, and I just now notice how beautiful he is. He grabs my face and I frown while he examines me. My eyes can't be red, I don't have enough in my system for that. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing." I say, swatting his hands away from my face. "It's none of your business. My dad is coming to pick me up."
"You can't go to the funeral like that." He scolds. I give him a look and shake my head.
"The hell I can't." I snap. "What's wrong with you?"
"I'm just worried about you." He sighs and wipes his face with his hand.
"For what?" I ask. I don't like when people judge me for smoking, he doesn't know what happened and why I smoked. "I told you I'm fine-"
"But you're not!" He snaps. "You hit a deer and you're sitting here high right now. You're not fine." He's interrupted by the sound of a car approaching. I grab my bag from on the floor board and take my key out of the ignition before standing up and shutting the door. I ignore Paul as I lock my car and get into the passenger side of the car.
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Blood Moon (Paul Lahote)
FanfictionCailyn Peters is the long lost daughter of Charlie Swan. She's trying to focus on Basketball at Forks High School when she gets involved in the supernatural world that her half sister, Bella, drags her into. She meets Paul and starts her rough journ...