"You're my universe."
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They were two completely different types of people during school. Max and Bryce just never connected. One was valedictorian and the other the star quarterback. It isn't until the summer before their first year of college...
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Maxwell’s POV
Why did I do that?
God! I managed to fuck up the only good thing about this summer!
Bryce isn’t gay. In the 12 years I’ve known him, he has not once exhibited gay behavior. I feel awful. I feel like I had taken advantage of him. Maybe he only leaned in to kiss me because I was doing it.
Afterall, I was entranced by him.
I’m not stupid or ignorant about the rumors that surrounded me about my sexuality. I can recall the few times I would get called a fag or teased by other guys. Funny thing is, I never even mentioned anything about my sexuality. Those rumors just came out of nowhere.
I never dated any girls and the only people I hung out with were girls. Does that make someone gay? No, of course not! I personally just can’t stand the masculinity the boys carry with them.
After Bryce left me, I waited a while. A few tears fell from my face. I think I’m starting to like Bryce. And that scares me, since eventually he would be going away. He did mention this could be a yearly tradition, but would he actually come through with them?
Personally, I blame myself for getting so attached. But then again, Bryce also leaned in…
I sat outside on our porch, looking up into the night sky. I can see the universe from here, though, it’s much better in that large field. I heard a meow coming from next to me.
“Hey, Luna.” I said to the midnight black cat with yellow eyes sitting next to me. I leaned my hand down and scratched behind her ears. She purred at my touch.
Luna is a stray cat but my mom and I consider her our official cat. However, she is allowed to roam freely. There would be times where she would leave for a week and return like a child who found their way home after a fun adventure.
“Do you think I’m pathetic for falling for a straight guy?” I asked Luna.
“Reow.” Luna responded.
“You’re right. My feelings are valid. Even if Bryce doesn’t like me back, at least I know I’m capable of love.” I said.
“Reeooww.”
“Oh well, at least we’ll be alone together forever.” I reached down and rubbed Luna’s stomach. I felt it was bloated. I looked down at her. Oh, she’s pregnant...
“God dammit, Luna. We were supposed to be lonely together.” I said. I rubbed her belly.
“Reooooww.”
“I just hope he treats you well. Who am I kidding? Cats aren’t monogamous!” I said.
“Reow.” Luna hopped onto my lap and cuddled up next to me.
“No, I’m not gonna seduce Bryce to fall in love with me. He has to do that on his own terms.” I said. I breathed in frustration.
A few days have now passed. And no words from Bryce. This is when I thought it was my fault. But also, Bryce probably needs time to figure out his feelings. It’s been a lonely week. No words, no laughs, no expeditions.
I have so much more to show Bryce. I just hope that even if he doesn’t like me back, we can at least still be friends.
Actually, it would probably hurt more if we just stayed friends. It’s not that I want him to love me, but I’m just saying. Only being friends with Bryce, knowing he’s right there but I can’t have him…
I laid on our hammock, rocking it back and forth to allow some of the summer breeze to blow past my hair to calm my nerves. Luna laid on the porch chair, my mom was at the town center shopping. It’s just me here.
I’m slowly growing more impatient. If Bryce doesn’t talk to me for a few more days, it’ll be a confirmation he no longer wants to hang out with me.
I’m totally whipped for him.
Just when I felt myself go to sleep, my phone rang in my pocket. I picked it up.
Message from Bryce: Hey, can we talk. Please?
He finally texts me. After all this time, he texts me. This text can mean anything. He wants to be friends, he wants more space, he wants to leave me. Or maybe…
…he also loves me.
But a guy can dream.
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