Devotion (Jikook)

Hope

                       Park Jimin
I look up at the orange sky.

A sunset is so calming, I almost forgot how much It's always helped me with my nerves.

These days while being distant from Jungkook, have been awful.

I feel the lowest I've ever felt in my life.

There isn't much I can do though.

I inhale deeply. My performance is tomorrow. I didn't invite Jungkook, obviously.

I don't want to perform a song I wrote for him, and let him watch.

I bet he doesn't even know it's tomorrow.

But that makes me glad. I think performing something about him to him, would probably either make him uncomfortable or me too emotional.

"Hi honey, you coming in soon?"

I look over at my concerned looking Mother. She's noticed a change in me recently, but she hasn't asked too many questions. She was never one to pry, and I truly love that about her.

"Yes, just wanted some fresh air," I say quietly.

She smiles softly and nods. "Okay, great idea. I left you dessert on the table."

I smile.

"Thank you Mom, I love you," I giggle.

She winks playfully before stepping back inside.

I have great people in my life that support me, I just need to get over Jungkook.

I stand up and dust myself off.

But, I never could, though.

I can't get over Jungkook. I never once have, so makes me think I ever will?

Especially after how close we've gotten.

Even though...I ruined it.

I gently close my eyes and feel the light breeze brush against my face and hair.

I feel warm.

I feel like maybe, I have hope.

Hope for something better than a man I can never have.

I inhale, and exhale softly, and get right into position.

"All this is no coincidence."