To My Heart

Chapter 14~ Bullets

Fanaa's POV.

A month later...

It's been a month since he left.

A month since I've been missing him everyday.

A month of time that I gave us both to take a breath and to make sure of us.

I settled everything in Turkey and now I'm ready to go back home.

He finished preparing our place.

A month felt like a year but finally the time has come for us to be together forever like we used to.

After sending my goodbyes to Tara I left for the airport.

She's the only person I'll truly really miss.

She has been there for me since I moved here and started my career and I'm so thankful for that.

I promised her to come and see her whenever I had time and I also forced her that if she ever needs my help all she has to do is give me a call and I'll be right by her side.

I just wish happiness for her.

I got on the plane and I was nervous.

I know that inshallah everything will go well but still, I can't help but feel this way.

Ahmed and I have talked on the phone and FaceTimed sometimes but seeing him in person will still feel different.

I wonder if he's as excited as I am to see him.

He did call me before I got on the plane to wish me a safe trip and he said he was impatiently waiting for me.

All I want is to see is his eyes and his smile.

I closed my eyes as memories of him and I flashed through my mind.

Smiling as if I was living them again I soon fell asleep.

***

I got off the plane a few hours later.

The ride wasn't so bad.

I slept half way through it so it was pleasant.

As soon as I was inside the airport I started looking for him.

He must be somewhere waiting for me, he said he was coming to get me.

I kept looking for him when I finally saw him from the back.

I took my phone out and dialed his number.

He picked up and I said "Ahmed turn around".

He turned and saw me and I saw a smile appearing on his face.

I ran towards him and jumped in his arms giving him the biggest bear hug ever.

"I missed you so much" I said.

"me too, a lot" he said.

I pulled away and he pecked my lips.

"you look beautiful as always" he compliments me.

I was smiling like a little girl and I hugged him again.

I felt like never wanting to let go of him.

But...it only took this moment before i heard gunshots.

I felt his body flinch against mine.

I was still holding onto him and didn't dare pull back.

"Ah..Ahmed?" I called his name.

Sirens.

Police officers.

A man holding a gun.

His lifeless body in my arms.

And... only a minute before I realized what has happened and before I feel my whole world crumble down again and then everything just went too fast.

***

" wake up Ahmed!! Wake up please!! Please please!!" I was yelling, I was crying.

The nurses were taking his body into the operation room and I couldn't stop but just panic.

He lost so much blood.

My hands are all covered in blood.

My clothes have his blood on them.

My hands can't stop shaking and I can't feel my body no more.

"please mam calm down" a nurse came to me and stopped me from trying to enter the ICU room.

She brought her arm around me and helped me sit on the bench that were placed on the side.

"how? How am I supposed to calm down?! What if he dies!!" I was loosing control.

I was spitting my anger on someone innocent but I was so hurt and scared.

"mam it's going to be okay... Calm down" she said that before leaving me still broken.

Crying, crying, crying.

That's all I did for the past three hours while he was being operated.

Then one by one, my whole family showed up.

They kept asking me what's wrong but I wasn't able to utter a single word.

I cried in my parents arms.

I cried in my best friend's arms.

I cried in my cousins arms.

But it wasn't enough for me.

It wasn't making me feel better.

Another hour passed by until someone finally came out of the room.

I got up immediately and ran up to the nurse to ask him how was Ahmed doing.

"how is he?" I asked.

"he...will be recovering well" he said.

Hearing that felt like I could finally breathe properly.

" the operation went well?" Abbu asked him.

"yes we took out the bullets and we were able to save him on time... We don't know when he'll wake up because a lot of blood went to loss but keep praying he gets better" he said.

"thank you sir" my dad thanked him before he left.

Without realizing, my knees gave up and I fell on the floor.

"Fanaa!" my Abbu grabbed me and helped me get up.

"beta he's fine now" he said.

I know he is but I still can't help but not feel at ease.

"come let's go home" he said but I declined.

"no... I'm not going anywhere I'm staying here with him until he wakes up" I said that as I went to sit back at my place.

"okay...your cousins will stay with you" he said.

He's okay. He's okay now.

Then why is my heart still shaking inside of my chest?

My parents left and only my cousins and Naina stayed.

They came and sat with me.

Naina grabbed my shaky hands.

" stop crying Fanaa... He's fine now alhamdullilah... try to feel at ease" I know she's trying to make me feel better.

Salman bent down to me and made me look into his eyes.

"you're the strongest woman I know to have experienced this and still be here... don't loose hope my Fanaa looks beautiful with a smile" he said that making me want to cry even more.

I hugged him tight.

"thank you" I said.

I felt Naina wrapping her arms around us and then Rahman, Sofia doing the same.

A big group hug, it was needed.

I couldn't be more grateful to have them.

***