To Touch Heaven

the truth

you asked me how i feel about you

i told you i didnt want to tell you

but this is me telling you

i dont know when youll see this

hopefully it will be soon, 

so you can see the truth of my heart

JRF,

i love you so much

i love you more than i think i ever have

which fucking sucks

because you dont love me like you use to.

i would do anything for you

i would drive across the county to see you,

i know i never did before but i would now

2 months too late it seems.

i spend every moment thinking about you,

thinking about how you were

how i wish you were again

how i wish you were mine again.

i think of the things we did

and everything we could do

i think most of how i could treat you so much better than i did.

most of all i wish i could have another chance to prove to you how much you mean to me.

J, i cant tell you my exact feelings for you because i dont know if words exist for how much i love you.

i love you and part of me wishes that i could stop so i wont hurt anymore but i love you too much to stop loving you.

i just wish you would love me like i love you

but its not fair to ask that of you

because i think you love her as much as i love you