To Touch Heaven

clueless

i really am happy so don't be fooled

i haven't done this in a while

im sorry i abandoned you guys too

but

i moved,

i have HIM back

i have a job i enjoy

i have pets i care about

everything is right in the world

but why can't i forget what ive lost?

some of you may know the person i called out to in the last chapters

she was my best friend

no one could compare

then i made a mistake and chased her away, but you know she came back

and then she left again

i guess it was my fault too

but i tried and she didn't see

or didn't care

i told myself i hated her,

and i did

but now i just hurt again.

im not writing this to her because she wouldn't care

it's much too late for us now

she has me blocked anyways

but i miss her you know

she's married now i think

i cried when i saw she was

we always promised we'd be there at each other's wedding

i wonder if she thought about me

or wished i was there

im glad im clueless tho

goodnight guys