In a loop
I'm stuck in a loop of pain, torture, and exuberance. I've been stuck in it for 2 years now, on and off.
Every time I get out of this unfortunate cycle, I pray with all my heart that I don't want to enter it again, yet I keep ending up here.
After every cycle ends, I see him coming closer to realization, than he previously was, and think that this is it, just a little bit of patience, and it's happily ever after.
Just wait a little more, and it'll be all euphoric.
And I wait, because I can wait for him for a lifetime. But that didn't include having to see him with someone else.Why do I have to go through this?
Why does every time he comes closer, he just drifts apart suddenly?Why??
I have so many 'why' in my head, yet there's no answer to it.
Just how much pain am I supposed to bear, before I crumble?
What wrong have I done, that I have to repent like this?As soon as he introduced Kashish to us as his girlfriend, I fell numb.
I didn't even have the courage to put up a facade.I could see everybody smiling awkwardly, and glancing at me, yet my brain couldn't acknowledge it.
So I got up and walked back inside the house.
I couldn't see it, yet I knew that everybody must be shocked.I walked into the living room of my house and walked toward the stairs, ignoring Maa and Mumma sitting on the couch.
" Ana " I heard the panting voice behind me.
I stopped but didn't turn around." Ana? " I felt his touch on my hand, that was on the railing of the staircase.
I slowly took my hand from under him and started walking upstairs.
I could practically feel his shock.I heard footsteps running behind me on the stairs, then felt Haans turn me around on the staircase.
He looked concerned and confused, waiting for me to say something.
But I didn't say anything and kept a poker face, well it was involuntary because all I felt was numbness.He climbed up on the same stair I was on and looked down at me with a frown
" Ana, are you okay? "" She's just experiencing some headache " I heard Piku say.
" What? Since when? Ana, why didn't you tell me? "
He was worriedly touching my forehead.When I didn't say anything he got anxious
" Ana, is it painting too much? Wait let's go to your room, you should lie down. "He took my hand in his and just as he was about to take me upstairs, I tugged him downstairs, to the living room, with me.
" Ana? Baby, you need to lie down. " Haans said, but I paid no heed to it and laid back on the couch.
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