Mafia Undercover

words came out

I had enough

I looked up at him with my throat still hurting and barely breathing

I still had my hands on my neck from all the pain

I had nothing but pure hatered in my heart for this man

All of that boiling anger in me came out

All of that built up, that holding back , I finnaly let it . out .

Charlie: I HATE YOU VINCENT!  I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!  EVEN IF YOU SAY YOU'RE MY BOYFRIEND, YOULL NEVER BE! I HOPE YOU GO THROUGH DOUBLE THE PAIN YOU PUT ME THROUGH! DO YOU EVEN REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU HURT ME!? HOW MUCH YOU CONTROL ME!? NO! BECAUSE YOU DONT HAVE A HEART! YOURE AS NUMB AS A ROCK! THATS WHY YOUR DAD NEVER WANTS TO SEE YOU!

Vinnie looked at me shocked.....

His eyes were filled with anger and.....a bit of sadness....

He didn't have anything to say......

Also bc that was the first time I used his name AND it was my first time cussing

He still looked mad and stormed off

I knew he wasn't happy and was mad at me but that was the last straw, I'm gonna fight back now .

Ugh.....at least now I won't have to go to that stupid event.....

I got up and went to the kitchen to get some ice

I don't care if he told me not to exit the room wItHoUt hIs pErmIsSiOn

This was the kitchen:

Oh my f-

You know what I'm not even surprised

I went to the fridge and got some ice

And rubbed it on my bruise

I wasn't wrong about the pain part, I didn't feel any pain anymore, I did feel it, but only at the moment it happens , not afterwards

When I was done I went to my room and got undressed

Then I hopped in the shower, putting the ice in my mini fridge as I would be needing it afterwards

I got in the shower and felt so at peace....

Its just...

Whenever I'm in the shower my worries vanish

The feeling......its special.....

I felt my pain just wash away and that felt amazing

I think its bc I know that's the place no one can enter and see me at my worst or my best

I cry, sing , laugh , dance and do everything I don't do outside in the shower

Its therapeutic

Once I was done , I put on the ac full blast and went to Vinnie's closet

And stole his shirt

Well that's what he gets for doing that to me

But when I put it on I smelled him......

No like.....it felt as if he was standing so......so close to me.....as if......he was right behind me.... Touching me .. 

I tried to shake the feeling off but....

But.....it didn't feel that ba-

What!? N-no.....! Never ew! Why do I always forget what he did....

He's disgusting

I went outside the bathroom and looked around

Fewww vinnie isn't here thank god

I got in bed under the sheets and-

OH MY F- GOD

WHY TF DO THE SHEETS SMELL LIKE HIM LIKE-

CAN I LIVE!? CAN I LIVE!?

But I was too comfortable to be bothered

I just fell asleep feeling so good

Cuz his room was rlly a whole vibe and it was ice cold

2 hours later ; 1:13 am

I was peacefully sleeping when I felt something on my stomach....

I got really scared

The lights were off and the room was so huge plus it was pitch black

When I realized it....it was an arm....

I looked down and saw my stomach wrapped in arms....

And I knew exactly who's arms those were.....

Vinnies......

I could recognize those muscles anywhere.....

Wait wha-

EW.....

I thought he was asleep and I was a bit scared when he rubbed his thumb against my stomach....

Char: get your hands off me .

I was honestly done with him

I was really scared, but I still have courage and im gonna use it

I'm tiered of being quite

Then he layed his head on my stomach

Char: did you not hear me.

I was so confused!?

Mind you, it was 1 am and the room was ice cold, pitch black and I just got up

When I realized he was crying....

W-what....

WHYS HE CRYING?!!

THE Vinnie hacker....crying!?

Is this man really that comfortable w me.....

W-what no....I hate him.....

Vinnie: I'm sorry.....I'm so f*cking sorry charlie, I'm sorry for hurting you.....I'm sorry for doing that.....I'm sorry for hurting the most beautiful , talented , smartest , and caring woman.....I promise....I wont ever lay a finger on you other than the intention to love you.....