Abandoned To Be yours | ✓

Chap-31Strange!

         I am so confused and shocked yet a little part of me is so happy to know that he loves me.

   I don't know why when he said that he can't love anyone I felt so hurt but when he claimed that he loved me I was shocked but happy because it's me who he loves.

           It's me to whom his heart belongs not anyone else, not that Stella and not any other girl but me

       But no he can't love me, he shouldn't love me. We don't belong to each other, we can't be together.

   Yes, I like him but I can't risk his life by letting him in my life. His life is already in danger by marrying me and if I'll love him it'll be more dangerous.

   They'll find my weakness and can target him. I can bear it because I'm alone, I have no one who'll miss me after I would be gone but Aaron has Liam.

   Liam needs him and I can't be selfish that just because I like him I'll put his life in danger.

        I sat in the car and was just thinking about all this. I don't know how long I was sitting here but it was snowing now.

        But you need him too!

     It's not important, his life is more important.

     What about your promise to your mother?

     She'll understand.

       But what about Aaron huh? You are saying you can't be selfish by letting him in your life but you are being selfish by pushing him away

    You are thinking about yourself but what about him. What about his emotions, his heart, his feelings, his love.

    Since the marriage, that man is doing everything to make you comfortable in that house. Didn't you see his efforts, his love towards you?

     I know I know everything but what's the use of that feeling when he'll be hurt when he'll be targeted just because I'm too much attached to him. What will I say to Liam then? How will I show my face to his brother that just because his only family is hurt

       If you think I'm selfish then let me be. Let me be selfish because whoever came close to me left me, either for my safety or for their reason and I can't be able to handle if anything happens to Aaron

   He doesn't deserve this, he deserves all the happiness and love in the world, someone who'll love him, care for him, and make him happy not someone like me who'll only hurt him and I'm sure in some years in he'll forget me

       If he wanted to forget you then 4years was enough period to forget but he didn't. His love towards you increased, and his longing for you increased. Don't you think he deserves love in his life too? Don't you think he deserves to be loved back by the person he is loving for 4 years

           He deserves love too, and you know you can protect him. You can do it but don't hurt him, at least give him a chance.

     But.....

      Fine! Then at least ask for his opinion, your decision will change his life too so at least tell him all about your Situation and let him choose.

      I smiled after thinking for a long time. I picked up my phone to call Aaron.

      Shit! When the hell did it switch off?

           Aaron will kill me.

         I drove home while smiling.

   Why the hell I'm so excited to see him?