hi guys so i need to make an important announcement:
i will always have love for finn in my heart. i think i actually was inlove with him at one point & that won't ever change, but lately i've been feeling like it's not worth it. why would you spend years being inlove with someone who won't notice you?
even though there's a chance finn & i could cross paths, he'll never return the affection i have towards him. for the last three to four years i refused to believe that.
i was so into him that i didn't listen to the fact that one day i won't have a crush on him anymore.
i'm not saying all my love for him is gone, but i'm romantically involved with someone in my life right now.
someone who isn't a celebrity & someone that i have already crossed paths with. someone who actually knows i exist.
he has trust issues so i don't think i should have pictures of finn on my phone anymore because there's a possibility that he will start overthinking.
i also don't want to have to explain to him that i write smut about finn on the internet. this boy seems like he actually really cares about me.
it just feels odd that i haven't been keeping tabs on finn anymore. like i have no idea what he's been up to other than his new film. i don't know anything (new) about the situation with his ex girlfriend either.
it almost feels... wrong?
because for so long i was convinced that i would be with finn & that he would pick me out of everyone else. that sounds silly but i was inlove with him.
not even for his looks (although that's a plus). i just couldn't believe what his personality was like because finn & i acted SO MUCH alike.
i don't want to rant too much on here, i'm just letting you know that my content might be less frequent. i'm not sure yet because i love writing.
but yeah, there's a little update on my life.
love you all. <33
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