I envy oblivious people.
husbands who never learn to cook,
little boys who never pack their own lunch,
the girls who never have money struggles,
women who never cry uncontrollably in changing rooms,
billionaire businessmen with so much money they tell the news their struggles to avoid being called nepo babies,
teenagers who never worry about pursuing art for lack of funds.
Envy is sinful but having awareness of your own sin is a privilege-
to be stable enough for self reflection and improvement, not just survive
I feel unqualified to talk about privilege
for I am lucky
But not oblivious
Not lucky enough to feel no fear
I wonder if anyone is?
Or if ultimately privilege is an illusion created by capitalism to make people grasp for more, fight, for joy, instead of finding it where they are
Is privilege a mindset?
Wealth?
Geography?
Genetics?
Or is it just oblivion
Pure ignorance
Do the two go hand it hand?
because it is more attainable for the average person
Just to be oblivious of other suffering is easier than making a billion dollars
Is it?
Is ignoring human suffering that easy?
Or does it come with the job.
Is lack of empathy rooted in feeling superior? Or just idiocy?
I may never know
But then again,
Do I want to?
Would I rather see Earth through a protective leds or reality?
If privilege is oblivion
Is it all it's cut out to be?
For I am content caring, seeing
Loving God, God's creations and God's plan for me
God created sin as a warning, a brilliant one that that
because although it brings dopamine in the beginning, it limits true happiness and love
Even if I die, and it's all a sham,
maybe the joy it brings me isn't,
maybe the joy contentment gives, is worth the lies
