FORMULA LOVE

"I hope so"

Laying in bed late at night with Leclerc is like heaven. He surprisingly takes up very little of his half of the bed so I have taken the liberty of covering the rest of it. He never seemed to have argued with me once over it, unlike Owen.

Every half hour he rolls to my side and brings me to his chest before rolling back only to do it again. I suppose it's his self-conscious still making sure I'm there. Which I have been every time.

I was just about to dwindle off to sleep again after my bathroom break when my bedside table starts to vibrate, from my phone, vigorously. It even manages to wake Charles up, something I've never seen before.

"Who the fuck rings at this time of the morning." The man-child next to me moans as he pretends to suffocate himself in his pillow. "I don't know." Is all I could muster up to say - his guess is as good as mine.

"Hel-" I was immediately cut off by a very emotional voice.

"Mercedes, hi it's your mother. Mattie wasn't breathing so we're on our way to the hospital. Please come as quick as you can!"

It was mum - I'd never heard her so distressed before. It sounded like she'd cried a million tears already. And my eyes were all ready welling up. I wiped them clear and composed myself, "Okay, Okay yeah see you."

I didn't hesitate in getting up and immediately throwing any old clothes on. I didn't even check if the colour matched or not. I was hyperventilating, trying to pack for the hospital - walking in circles around the room.

"Sadie!" Leclerc said, I didn't even realise how odd this must've been from his view. "What's wrong?" This time his voice was more controlled and gentle.

"Matt, my brother. He's u-unconscious." I just about managed to stagger through the sentence before losing all balance and falling onto his chest, tears staining his shirt. "I don't know what to do Charles."

He slowly brings his hand up to the back of my head, stroking my hair gently like a newborn. He rubs my back too, also gentle as though I was fragile. "It's fine you wait at the front door I'll go get your stuff." He says before holding my face, adding "it's going to be okay."

With a quick kiss on my forehead he was gone. But then returned 2 minutes later with two bags as he led us out of our apartment. We went to the lift and then to the car park.

Millions of cameras did not hesitate to blind us, ever since news broke of our relationship the paparazzi have been outside our apartment building every day and night.

We quickly walk to Charles' Porsche and he takes off at lightning speed to the hospital. Clutching my hand every step of the way.

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"Oh darling you made it!" Mum said as she rushed over to me. "Hey kiddo." My dad greets me before nodding at Charles.

"How is he? Can I see him?"

"No, not right now honey. They're trying to stabilise him." Dad says as his eyes start to blur up. He's never been one for emotion so I knew this was bad.

"What happened to him." I asked.

"We'll we heard a thud from upstairs and then a scream from Jamie. We ran up and he - he wasn't - breathing." Mum explains before having to walk off to compose herself. Dad goes to check on her down the hall.

I soon spot the floppy haired boy hunched back in his seat, his head in his hands, his knees bobbing up and down uncontrollably. I take a seat next to him and decide to let my head against his. "Jay he's going to be oka-"

"HOW THE FUCK DO YOU KNOW!" Jamie interrupts me. "YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT. HE MIGHT DIE SADIE. He might ... fucking die."

My brother collapses into my lap, sobbing uncontrollably. I brush back his brunette hair gently. Then I realised how much this will have taken a toll on Jamie. A sibling bond is strong but a twin bond is even stronger. The poor boy has gone through this twice with Mattie all because of stupid cancer.

Cancer doesn't just destroy its victims, it also destroys the victim's family.

"I'm sorry Sayd. I'm just so scared." He suddenly says as he looks up at me with his red eyes. "It's okay Jay. I understand." I reply kissing his head and bringing him into my side - hugging him tightly.

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"Hey Matt. You okay?" I said sheepishly as I walked into the room.

"Yeah never felt better!" He says with a sarcastic laugh, he had tubes and wires coming from left, right and centre. If my heart could properly shatter, it would be at this point. It's how he was so close to death and still has a smile on his face.

My parents go to cross around him, each giving a hug. Me and Leclerc stand either side of him whilst Jamie is sat basically on top of his legs.

"You'll get better Mattie, I just know it." Leclerc says what we was all thinking as he holds my brothers hand gently.

"I hope so." He murmurs quietly.