181.
I hope that one day.
You would understand what you put me through.
~E, I didn't deserve that and you know it.
182.
I'm tired of holding onto someone's hand
that isn't wanting to hold onto mine.
~E, I need to learn how to let go.
183.
"If he wanted to, he would."
He would want me if I was prettier,
skinner,
had a bigger chest.
Was less clingy.
Was quieter.
Was less of annoyance.
Was someone I am not.
Never could be.
Sometimes I wish I was.
~E, then would he want me?
184.
I should not be this attached to you.
You're not even mine.
~E, was never to begin with.
185.
"boys will change for someone they want to change for."
As I laid awake at night wondering why I couldn't be the one he wanted.
After so many chances I've gave him for him to change.
I wanted so bad for him to want me.
I wanted to be someone he laid awake at night wanting.
Wanting to see, touch, talk to.
I wanted to be someone special to him.
I knew how he treated me.
I knew I deserved better.
I played it over and over again in my head.
But I knew.
I wasn't the someone he would change for.
~E, why could it be me?
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sunsets after dark. | poetry collection
Poetryfor the ones that were the sunshine for one wrong person then became the midnight rain for everyone else. an collection of poetry and short stories. ‼️TW‼️ contains hard topics including a mention of SA & SH. Amongst other things. I am a poet I wr...
