ʙᴀᴅᴍᴀɴ ᴀ ᴍɪ ᴛʏᴘᴇ

Push

Zyairie POV
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Wen dis pain oh end?

It's been three days since everything has happened and trust me I can't sleep or eat mi ago insane

Lamaya is going through it she hasn't spoken to anybody and won't eat either

I've been smoking and drinking my life away mommy woke up yesterday morning and can barely talk or walk

She just sits around looking at the wall maybe blaming herself for everything that has happened at this rate

She's most likely to get another stroke and we don't know what will happen if that happens

Cya lose mi mada right now mi already afi go bury har husband

Jah know

Eva see a big man cry tears inna eh dawk a wonda how fi solve him problems dem

Mi bawl each day thinking about weh dem coulda a do wid mi ute dem...

Now mi feel how samson did feel wen Delilah cut him hair off dawg! Eh wulla mi strength gone

And a just pain mah feel

Why all a dis a happen to mi!?

Mi waah pray but mi mind filled with evil thoughts and there's nothing good I want to do with the people who are making this happen

I put the bottle of Hennessy at my head it's 7 am and I'm on my third bottle of liquor

It nuh 3 phase mi but fact seh mi no eat is like a just feel like mah drop dung

Mi cya do dis to miself mi afi be strong fi Lamaya and mi ute dem a mi only she really ave right now

Her family is currently at the hospital with her

I'm yet to face them I need a line up and I need to shower

I sigh getting up

Mi a hurt but mi afi man up I go to the room entering the bathroom throwing up the liquor I went into the shower

After I'm done I brush my teeth and put my locs in a man bun

Getting dressed I went to the kitchen making myself a sandwich

Eating half I threw the rest out getting in my car I made my way to the hospital

Pulling into the parking lot I sighed trying to free my mind before going inside so much pon mi mind

Weh mah go seh to dem? Why we did afi meet unda dem circumstances yah

Exiting the car I made my way into the building going to the lobby I check in before taking the elevator

It exit the elevator I made my way down the hall to the room I stop hearing laughter

I smile a little

"Yeah I remember that," I heard Lamaya say

I'm happy that she's trying to cope with all of this

I knock on the door opening it I saw her cousins sitting around she sighs

"Zyairie," Gavin says dapping me up as Lisa and pinky smiles at me

They make their way out the room as I sat on the bed beside lamaya

"How have you been,?" I ask as she sighs

"Mi no know," she answered

"Zyairie I miss my babies,"