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15~Baby Talks

Knocked Up by Kings Of Leon
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2 days later*
C POV

"You good?" Alex asks as I nod shuffling backwards on the sofa. Mom had arrived yesterday but had went out for a day shopping with one of her friends. I had forced Ki to go to work this morning and Alex had appeared sometime this afternoon just as the doctor announced I could leave.

"Do I get to know what's wrong with you yet or?" His voice trailed off as I shrug. "You scared me." Alex smiled making me giggle to myself quietly. "I'm serious."

"Well, I'm glad your poor heart survived." I laugh quietly shivering a little before pulling my big fluffy blanket over me. Alex chuckles to himself pouring some orange juice into a glass for me and walking back over to me.

"You look cute all wrapped up like that." He laughs as I pout snuggling into the couch further my cheeks reddening a little.

"You can go you know, you've already lost enough business and money because of me." I smile awkwardly taking the glass out of his hands and sipping the drink slowly.

"Do I get to know what's wrong with you?" Alex asked again as I shook my head awkwardly. I still haven't quite admitted the whole thing to myself. I don't want to admit the whole thing to myself. The word is terrifying. Alex nods to himself the two of us falling into an uneasy silence as I fiddle with my fingers.

After a few minutes Alex stands patting his pockets and pulling out his car keys. "Well, if you wanna talk or tell me, I'm here." Alex promises as I nod slowly, he leans over his lips brushing my left cheek. "I love you," he mumbles making my stomach drop and eyes become wide.

Did he just?

"Al..." I trail off my hand brushing my left cheek as Alex just stares at me nervously.

"You don't have t-"

"I'm pregnant Alex." I interrupt him not having the nerve to look him in the eye. The words make my stomach twist uncomfortably and I cringe at the stunned look Alex is wearing. "That's why I'm so sick." I whisper chewing on my lower lip.

"I'll be here for you a-"

I snort a little and shake my head. "No you won't." I say matter of fact. "You're better than that." The words that were about to leave his lips make me cringe. It's such a cliche thing to say and Eventhough I know that when it came down to it Alex will always be there he's not the person I actually want or need.

The person I want is over 8,000 miles away and hates me. The last time we spoke was a month ago and every effort I've made to contact him since has pretty much failed. I should've stayed but no, I ran away like a scared two year old. I seem to do that a lot; push people - particularly Justin - away, decide things are over when they're not, make irrational decisions. I drive myself crazy so God only knows how other people cope.

"I dont suppose you could leave?" I ask yawning to myself a sudden wave of exhaustion washing over me. "I'm really tired all of a sudden." I whisper as Alex nods his mouth opening and closing. I do care no matter how insensitive I seem right now. I just don't think I could handle a new relationship on top of all this at the moment.

"Sure" he whispers looking at me for a moment longer, "Bye Char." He mumbles as I continue to chew on my lower lip before hearing the door latch close.