Sombre

Chapter 30

Preston doesn't come next day like he usually does. I end up spending the whole day in my room which doesn't help make my mood better. It only makes me grumpier and sad. The TV stays on for the whole day even though I'm barely watching it.

The night keeps repeating in my head . I keep wondering if this is yet another of Preston's idea to torture me. Is he trying to make me trust him so that he will again break me into pieces.

He still loves me

But do i?

Do I even want to get back with him. The man who tortured me in innumerable ways. Who said that he will kill me and dump me somewhere and no one will be able to recognise me. Can a man who did all this be capable of loving me again. The answer seemed No. Only a fool will trust a person like that. But what options do I have. What will I do if not accept his love. I have nowhere to go. If I refuse to get back with him , he will simply kill me. But if I pretended to atleast love him , I might be able to get away.

Two can play this game

She had nothing to lose really. This was the only option left with her.

This is what she must do.

...

When Preston arrives the next day , he seems shocked to find her ready already, waiting for him. She gives him a timid smile .

" Shall we go?" She asked when he kept gawking at her.

He nodded absentmindedly and they both went to their usual walk.

" I thought about what you said yesterday" she said and he looked at her surprised.

"I think it's wise for both of us to put it behind . It's.. it's going to be hard for me to forget what you did but I know why you did it. I would have done the same thing if I were in your place so I understand. "

" We can see a couple therapist if it helps and you can see a therapist yourself. It's just , I know that whatever I do to you won't bring them back. When ...when you were dying..when you almost died , it scared the living shit out of me. I knew then that I didn't want to lose you ."

" I'm sorry, I just wanted the pain to end. It was too much. I felt truly alone. It seemed as if no one was on my side. It seemed pointless to keep living. I'm sorry " she said as tears filled her eyes.

" Shh.. it's okay now . " He said and gently wiped her tears.

They sat on the mat and had fruits . They didn't speak anything for awhile, just enjoying the weather . When she felt drowsy, he gently took her and kept her head on his lap and played with her hair.

She couldn't relax though, her body was tense throughout. She expected him to pull her hair , to drag her by her hair and hit her . She was expecting it but he did nothing of the sorts. Soon enough she fell asleep and he carried her in her room.

She pretended to be asleep as he tucked her in the blankets . She felt anxious not knowing what exactly was going on his mind. Even if she pretended to give him a chance , what will happen in the future. Is he saying the truth and will she always have to pretend to love him if that happens.

Her mind went through all the scenarios and none made her feel secured. She only felt her anxiety increased as she thought about all the things that might happen in the future.