THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

CHAPTER NINETEEN - MINE

Blake POV

"Yes?" I said as I answered my phone. I swear Evan always checks on me from time to time. I know he just worried about me. Not to mention after everything I did to myself for this last year's my wife left me.

I was in and out of the hospital a couple of times. That I lost the will to live and things didn't matter to me. When she left me everything it's useless, my life seemed to lack colors. If not for Evan who keeps reminding me that I can't rewind nor bring back the past anymore or if I keep doing it I can never correct my mistakes.

I really want to be with her. The blankets that we shared together, her favorite things in the house are all gone. I have never seen any of our pictures together. It's all burned.

Even our pictures on our wedding day and the videos she destroyed everything leaving me nothing to look at when I miss her. Good thing I found my phone. I thought I lost it but when I got it. I forgot that when I blindly believed those pictures of her with another man I erased every picture of her in there.

The only thing that left me was a single notebook containing her prenatal. It even had an ultrasound of our baby. I always looked at it each time. I always talk to my baby saying that she will take care of mommy while I am away from them, that I will find them no matter what. And if I got to see them again I swear I won't let go of her hands ever again. I will hold on to her like my life depends on it. Even if she's going to hate me or be mad at me, I don't care.

I will never let go of her, that's a promise to myself. I even bought a surprise for her. I know she will love it. Just thinking about it makes my heart flutter.

"Blake you ok there?" Evan's voice waking me from my trip down to my past.

"Yeah!" I said as I sigh.

"Man, I know you are missing her. Come on, why don't you join the team practice? It will be a great help. So you will not spend an hour thinking about her!"

"Evan, you know I would never stop myself thinking about her. She's everything to me. I miss my wife Evan. I don't even know if she's missing me or not. How is she and my child? I have so many things I want her to ask from her. Not to mention I missed her warm embrace, her smile, her way of laughing, her soft voice calling me names. Goodness, I think I am crazy talking to myself each time!" I said as I can't stop myself talking about her.

"Everyone made a mistake Blake, you're not perfect. Let's just hope that we will find her again!"

"Yeah, I miss her pretty badly!"

"Blake, the boys asking if you want to join in our practice? Man, we've been missing your actions since you stopped playing!"

"I don't want Evan. Last time I played I hurted my wife. She's all I can ever think of!"

"Bro, sometimes you need to stop thinking about her!"

"Do you want to die Evan? Why would I stop myself thinking about her? That's the only thing that keeps me living. If I am not thinking of her, it means I am dying. I won't stop thinking of her. You don't know how torture it was the feeling that you have a wife and child but there not with you? It's killing me every damn time!"

"Man, I know I don't know that feeling but I know it's hard!"

"You don't know because your wife and your daughter are there with you!"

"Blake, I know! Because just thinking about losing them makes me go insane too!"

"Yeah, what's my child look like? I hope he or she looks like her mother!"

"Goodness man, you are really whipped!"

"I am whipped. I am always whipped and I am not ashamed of it. Where the hell am I going to find them? I keep hiring investigators to find them but they are nowhere to be found. They keep telling me they look everywhere but no one knows her. It's like she disappears like a bubble!" I said 'cause it's true.

For the past three years I have been hiring investigators to find her but all of them resulted the same. They can't seem to track her. Like she didn't exist at all.

One of the investigators told me that my wife seems like a fake one. I almost threw a punch on him for telling me that she's fake. But he gave me reason and told me that when he looked for her he couldn't find her data. Everything about her is none existent.

Did she lie to me about her?

One thing I am sure of is that I never got to meet her parents cause she said that they are already gone and her distant relatives she's not close to them. But never I ever think that she's faking her identity. Maybe he's wrong for thinking about it. There's no way she will make her identity.

"Don't worry, man you will find her sooner. Maybe in god's time. Let's just pray that everything will come to place and that you will be given another chance to be with her again. If that happens please don't mess it up!" Evan said to me. From the way his voice sounds. I know he sends me a warning one cause only if I listen to him. We will never be here in this situation in the first place.

"Yeah, no need to remind me of that. If I need to be her slave 24/7 I will. If she's going to punish me I will accept it heartily just to be with her. You don't how I missed her so bad. What's even worse is that I can't find her personal things anymore. I wish I had her blankets, towels, you know! But no, she didn't leave any of it. Instead, those things I bought for her were expensive one. She leaves them be. Not even a photo of her!" I said.

"She really doesn't want you to look for the past. Maybe she thinks that you hate her and that everything about you and her is gone. So she destroyed everything so you know move on!"

"Move on? Evan I swear I am going to punch you right now if you are here in front of me. There's no way I want her to move on. She can't move on without me! I won't let her. She can't be. She's everything I have. She's my life, my world, my everything!"

"Blake, you know there's a possibility that she….!"

"Don't continue it. I won't let her replace me with anyone. She's mine to begin with and she will be one forever!".

"You divorce her!"

"It was a mistake. If I see her again I will tell her it's a big mistake. We will get married as soon as possible. Or maybe I will take her to Las Vegas so we can get wed there"

"You really think of this huh? Las Vegas?" I can hear him smirks.

"Of course, I am going to get her! She's mine!" I said in finality.