THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT - ONE CHANCE

Lila POV

I wake up feeling there's something heavy flowing in my body. I tried to move but it seems like I am being locked. Something warm envelops my body as its heat radiates and I want to sink deeper into it.

I opened my eyes, and I blinked rapidly as my eyes felt stink from the sudden contact to the brightness of the sun.

I groaned inwardly, as I could feel something pressing over me. I looked up to the culprit and my eyes bulged wide as I saw the sight of Blake only on his boxer and shirt off.

His arms sprawled in me, caging me entirely. But his eyes opened looking at me with so much adoration. He smiled when he saw I had already woken up.

"Morning Sweetheart!" He said to me,

"Why are you looking at me like that? And how come, you are hugging me? I thought I made myself clear last night?" I said to him,

"You didn't let me answer ok? But sweetheart can we not argue? Hmmm… here I am wishing that time stops!"

"Huh? Why would you wish that?"

"Because, I want to stop so morning won't come but of course it didn't go as I wish!"

"Why don't you want morning to come?" I asked him again.

"Because, you will be going back to your place leaving me alone again here. I wish I can take you back to our house. Sweetheart, don't you miss our home?" He asked me with those glassy eyes.

"Blake come on, I need to get up!" I soas trying to change the topic.

"Sweetheart, do you know I put a mini in-house garden? You keep telling me before you want one right? When those strawberries bear fruit, all I can think is you, for sure you will love picking them!" He said and I looked at him.

It's true I have been trying to ask him in the past that I want to have an inhouse garden. I didn't know he would make it come true after everything happened to us.

"Though I didn't get a chance to see those strawberries Blake, but I want you to know that I appreciate it, so thank you!" I soas smiling softly at him.

"Do you want to go there? I can arrange everything now? Then we can go back in the evening here? What do you think?" He asked and his face brightened with those thoughts.

"Huh? I don't think so!....." I said as I can't answer him as I am clearly taking off guard of what he said.

"It's pretty nice there sweetheart. Do you know I even put a baby room there too. Amari already has her own room there. Also, I, …. Hmmmm.. I know you won't like this. But, I bought so many things for you. I added everything in your walk-in closet. Please don't get mad I just want to spend my money on you. Those thoughts kept me alive all those years. Because I want to surprise you!" He said, looking at me with hopeful eyes.

I didn't answer him since I don't know what to say. I just continue to stare at him not knowing what to say. I just can't find the right words to say to him. What puzzles me is why can't he just move on?

"Sweetheart, let's go home! Home…. Please???" He said. He almost choked as he said the last word.

"I am already at home, Blake!"

"No, your home is our home. Don't you miss cooking in our kitchen? Yelling at me when I take off my clothes and don't bother to put it in the bin? When you love to snuggle in our living room during rainy days? Don't you miss those things?" He asked me and I felt something inside me said  "yes!" But I can't, I choose not to say that word.

Truthfully, for three years it's really hard to break those habits. I still cooked his favorite food even though we have a personal Chef in the palace. I still cook on my own sometimes. Something never changes. I always tried to erase those memories of him with me.

This guy I am staring at right now is still the same guy that owns my heart. I know it would take a lot of years to change what my heart wants. Three years is not enough for me to forget him.

It's so unfair though. It only takes one glance of him to make me fall for him but it takes how many years to undo those feelings. But one thing for sure I am not ready yet to come into terms with him. I may have loved him till now, but the pain and wounds that have been created by the past are still aching and painful. No matter what, this time I will protect myself from those feelings even if I have to fight my own self for that.

"Blake, no matter what you say, my decision is final. I can't be with you anymore. I have proven in the past that love is not enough for someone to make him stay. It takes love, trust and faith to be in a relationship with someone which obviously we lacked in the past. Whatever we had back there was not enough proof why we are here now, separated!"

"I know, I am so wrong, very very wrong to think that way of you. I want to undo it. Please let me prove to you that I can change and I can love you more than myself, more than everything. I promise this time I won't let your heart break and I will never let you down! Just one chance, all I want is one chance. Give me one chance. I'll prove it to you please????" He said,

As much as I want to say yes. I can't , I really can't. This is not just for me but for my daughter too.