I walk, umbrella in hand

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A dark morning,

grey, almost black clouds infecting the sky,

heavy rain falls,

coating everything it touches.


I walk, umbrella in hand,

I walk alone, the umbrella and rain being my only company,

as I reflect, on myself, on my habits,

on the past, present and future. 


Am I doing the right thing?

does fate have a different path for me,

am I swimming up the river instead of down it,

but this is what I want to do...

Right? 


Working towards a goal,

for years and years,

yet, as I get closer and closer,

I feel as though this is wrong,

not fully, but partly.


Why do I feel this way?

I have had this dream,

this dream I've been chasing,

for years and years,

what has changed? 


I wish for a sign,

even a small one,

a sign to show me what to do,

what I should be doing,

whether it be what I am doing now,

or something different,

I do not mind. 


A sign to show me whether I should start anew,

or continue down this path I am on,

whether I should choose different dreams,

make different companions,

whether I should change my focus,

focus on something else, something different,

for at the moment, I am lost,

walking down this path,

feeling as though I should walk down another,

however, I am unsure,

not wanting to make mistakes,

for I do not have the time to do so,

I simply wish for a sign,

a sign that would put these raging thoughts to rest. 

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