All she ever wanted was someone who can love her, understand her and respect her but destiny has something else stored.
All her life she prayed for one thing which is, not to be a BURDEN on anyone, but life's not fair at all
She thought its love but...
The doctor's words were playing in my mind again and again, I closed my eyes and replayed all the things which Xander have said a while back
My insecurities and the feeling of being unwanted came flashing in my mind, from my childhood to this day
I don't want my child to go through all the things which I have gone, I want my baby to feel that he or she is loved and wanted, I want my baby to have a father, and I don't want my baby to end up like me.
Why is life like this?
Opening my eyes, I saw him, looking at me viciously. if looks could kill then I would've been 12 feet under now.
He was staring at me hatefully, while I was looking at him in helplessness and I don't realise when a drop of tear fall from my eyes.
He gave me his irritated look and was about to say something but two people entered the room, obviously Kyle and Cole
"So, what's the news ?" Cole asked Xander
"The bitch is pregnant" Xander replied still looking at me
On the scale of 10, I'm 1000 times more hurt
" What the??" Kyle said and started laughing
I looked at him, and he kept laughing, more like laughing at me and my helplessness.
" Get out" Xander said calmly
I got Confused that to whom he's saying, his eyes were on me, oh that's me
"GET. THE. FUCK. OUT. OF. MY. HOUSE" He said each word very slowly yet dangerously that I flinched
"But.. but Xander, I-I'm Pre-pregnant" I said somewhere in a hope that he might change
But who am I kidding?
" You really are thick, How many times I have to say, don't fucking call me, Xander, you desperate dumb bitch" he screamed at my face
" And yes, about your pregnancy, I don't Fucking care. Who knows whose child is it?" He said disgustingly
My hands were wrapped around my stomach, and my face was again drenched in tears, this time it wasn't for what he did to me, this time it was for my baby
"Its-its y-yours, I-I lo-" I tried to speak but he interrupted me
" Shut up, just shut up, I'll sew your mouth, otherwise" he shouted
" No, this isn't my baby, what do you think that Xander Black will have a Child with a girl like you? Haven't you seen yourself, you unwanted burden" he said
I closed my eyes in fear, he is scaring me. somewhere my baby's condition is just like me, I've longed for my Father every single day and I don't want my baby to go through that feeling, so I decided that if I have to beg also, I'll beg.
"N-no Xan-X, i-its your baby. Ple-please do-dont abandon us" I cried infront of him
I didn't called him Xander as I don't want him to be more angry, His friends were videotaping everything
"Fuck" he mumbled frustratingly and then he smirked and said " Oh Sia, my poor Sia. Your child is a bastard just like you, now before I call someone to throw you out, fuck off " saying this he stood up and walked through the door but I ran infront of him and stop him
"No-no, please. I beg you X. Do-dont leave us" I cried holding his arms
"I'll do whatever you will say, you-you have pro-problem with me, right? So hit me, punish me, sl-slap me, do whatever y-you want to do, but please please don't leave us" I sobbed
He didn't said a thing, he just stood there with a tired and hateful look
" Please, your b-baby needs you more than you-you th-think" I said joining both my hands
"Are you done with your boring speech?? Kyle, call someone to through this trash out" he said
" No please, I'll die without y-you, don't leave us" I again pleaded
" Die then, no one needs you not even your baby. You know what I was thinking ?? That you're going to be a trashy, irritating, and spineless mother, I hope that your baby don't get to see how awful you really are! " He said all this very casually and I just stared at him, this isn't the person I love
How can he talk about his own baby like this? If fathers are like this then I'm glad that I don't have one.
" I'm giving you 5 minutes, take your things and get the hell out of my life" saying this he left with his friends
I sat on the floor, thinking again and again that what did I ever do? Tears were continuously flowing. I had no strength left, I've lost my dignity and respect today, I stooped so low but he didn't listen to me, not once
I begged, but he didn't care. I stood up and changed my clothes, taking my stuffs I went out to see the party was over, he with his friends were on the couch laughing, I overheard some of their conversation which was regarding me but this time it didn't hurt me
X saw me and he stood up with his hands in his pocket, smirking he came towards me
"Finally, the bitch is not begging anymore, have fun with you and your trash. Remember, you and your baby both will always be unwanted and a burden" he said disgustingly
" I hope you had an amazing time making fun of me, insulting me and ruining me. Thank You for all the lessons, I'll always remember them. I hope your every desire come true, I wish you all the success, Mr. Black" I said without stuttering, looking straight in his eyes and left.
Just like that our story is over... Or maybe that I thought
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Just in a second my life is changed, the cold breeze fell on my face I was walking, walking to nowhere, I had no idea where I'm heading to. Tears were continuously flowing from my eyes, I was trying to stop myself but I didn't know how to!
I loved him the most, I cared for him the most, I trusted him the most, I could have kill myself just to see a small smile on his face, I treated him like my everything but he crushed me, he broke me beyond anything.
The feeling of betrayal stung me, my heart felt like it will explode and somewhere I was still trying to figure out what just happened?
My phone rings, and that's when I came in my senses. It was my mum calling, I looked at the screen at my mum's pic, and a sob escaped from my mouth 'Mommy, I need you but I can't let you see me this broken' I said to myself and sent a text to my mum telling that I'm ok
After texting her, I looked up and saw where I am. Turning around I saw the small yet enticing familiar house where I first met him.
A drop of tear fall on my cheeks, wiping the tear I wrapped my hands around my stomach and whispered " its just you and me, now"
With this I turned back, with the hope of never seeing him again.
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