Cal's Pov:
the night beforeText from Lenny:
Lenny: hi lad you up for coming out tonight?
Cal: alright will, yeah sure where to?
Lenny; pub mate
Cal: sure, let's go to one near yours
Lenny; sounds good, get uber to mine?
Cal: onnitI got dressed into some jeans and a black t-shirt and chucked on some converse and a jacket.
"Harry lad i'm going out" I walked into Harry's room where he was sitting doing absolutely nothing
"Okay see you later" he called back
I then went to Lux's room
"Lux lad i'm away out, see you later"
"okay see ya" he smiled backI jumped into an uber and headed to wills.
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We ended up not going to a pub and ended up in a club right near wills.
We drank and drank and drank until I couldn't even stand up straight without wobbling over.
Random girl: "Hi are you calfreezy?"
Cal: "yeah"
Random girl: "I'm Kate, nice to meet you"
Cal: "alright, nice to meet you too"
Kate: "you here alone?"
Cal: "nah with my mate Will, he's over there"
Kate: "oh that's boring"She placed her hand on my arm and pulled herself into me, next thing I knew her lips were connected to mine and we were kissing in a club.
Then it hit me, LUCY. I've done it again. I've gone and fucking done it again.
Get drunk and ruin everything I enjoy.
I pushed the girl off me
"Sorry uh I can't do that" I stuttered not making eye contact
"You've got a girl haven't you?" she laughed
"Nah I just ain't this type of person" i played it off so she couldn't expose me
She just laughed and walked off to join her friends.
I decided I couldn't stay in this club so I ran out and ran to the other side of the street.
I got my phone out and without thinking just threw it at the wall, shattering it into pieces.
I was so distraught and disgusted in myself that I've done it all again.
Nobody has to know, if i keep it to myself the guilt will slowly go away. The guilt from Alice never went away but this might because I stopped myself.
I slipped down the wall onto my arse and held my head in my hands, crying and embarrassed
"Hey Cal, are you alright ?" I heard Will shouting coming closer to me
"Cal, lad" he asked again
"Yea yea i'm fine mate, can we go?" i didn't lift my head up
"You wanna just stay at mine?" he asked and I nodded.
We walked back to his flat in silence, Will tried to speak to me but I just ignored him.
We finally arrived and he led me to the spare room, he gave me a bottle of water and then left to his room.
I spent the night staring at the ceiling, crying at how stupid I am.
Slowly I fell asleep
* morning *
"Cal wake up" Will was shaking me
"CAL WAKE UP!" he shouted
"I'm up prick what is it?"
"Simon wants to speak to you?" he answered
and then i remembered, my phones broken, i kissed a random girl last night and none of my friends have heard from me since yesterday. I'm completely fucked
I took the phone off Will and spoke to Simon. He was pissed, really really angry. Lucy is sitting crying because she thinks I've gone missing.
I wish I had gone missing to be honest.
Simon hung up the phone and I got dressed into my clothes from last night and got the first uber i could to the sidemen house, making sure to thank will for letting me stay.
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