𝑴𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 | Billie eilish

𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑤𝑜

tw. suicide

billies pov

i woke up my body shaking. another nightmare

the nightmare I've been getting recently  is repeating itself.

golden gate bridge.

thinking that i could fly so stepped of the golden.

everyone staring at me no body cried. nobody even noticed.

the only thing i could feel is the flashing lights going off.

Nobody even cared.

I reminder my family standing and just Staring.

And mel...she was there. She didn't even care

I took my book and started writing these sick feeling had in my stomach. I looked to my side seeing Mel sleeping peacefully.

I took  my phone to look at the time.

7:30am

I sighed and got off my bed.

I walked to finneas room. To see him passed out on his bed

god... do you think he would hate me if I did end it.

Maybe.

But who does care?

Maybe the dream was a sign.

Maybe it's time

Maybe it is time to listen before I go..

I sat on the piano and started making some notes.

I liked how this sounds.

I remember reading Mels book.

I'm truly sorry for invading her privacy but the lyrics reading. The sounded so incredible.

Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek
That's what a year-long headache does to you
I'm not okay, I feel so scattered
Don't say I'm all that matters
Leave me
Deja vu

I started puting some pieces together.

"Billie what the fuck are you doing" I heard behind me

I jumped back and saw finneas rubbing his eyes from exhaustion

"Listen to this"

I played it for him

"Wow it's amazing...are you okay tho" he asked furrowing his eyes rethinking the lyrics

"Yeah yeah... could I work with this song on my own and then we will see if I like it and we can fix things with the song" I smiled

"Yeah...you should probably go to sleep Billie it's literally..." he took his phone out

"8am"

"Yeah sorry I just had a lot of things on my mind" I said standing up getting ready to walk

he looked at me

"You like her don't yo-" finneas was about to say but then someone spoke over him

"Who likes who" Mel said as she rubbed her eyes with her pjs.

Damn she's so hot when she wakes up. And her voice is so raspy...

"No one no one." Finneas said quickly

"Alright then" Mel furrowed her eyes.

"bil come back to bed it's cold and I want to cuddle" she said smiling and walking away

"Okay" I said starting to walk

Finneas pulled me again. He was about to speak but I spoke over him

"Bro I don't know. I'm not even gay." I said m

"Yeah please" I could feel him rolling his eyes in his voice

I just walked away back into my room seeing Melanie staring at the blank wall.

I wonder what she's thinking about

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A/n here's a chapter