Aro Volturi's Heart- My Hands

Chapter 12

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Chapter 12-

"Bella, get your head out of your ãss." Rose snapped at me as I lay on the bed for the third day in a row. I sat up and looked at her, my eyes red and puffy. I looked down again, letting my greasy hair fall back into my face as I flopped back onto the bed, blatantly ignoring Rose.

It was three days since the fight, since the news that Charlie had passed and I was mourning. Jane and Demetri had left after they realized I was in deep sorrow and wasn't going with them to Volterra.

Jane, however, reminded me I had her cell phone number and the doors to the Volturi were always open for me.

I just couldn't bring myself out of Forks. Not yet. I need time, I reasoned. Rose, apparently, didn't agree.

"Bella, real talk right now, your being a bîtch. If you were doing something, we'd all be happy to comfort you and whatever, but all you are doing is just sitting. Go get closure, or do something, anything! Clean up his stuff! I'd say to bury him, but we  had to fućking bury him for you! So go write a letter to him and do something, my god!" Rose yelled. I looked at her angrily.

"You know what Rose? Fück you!" I screamed, tears streaming down my face, "A fućking letter won't bring him back! Cleaning his stuff won't bring him back!"

"Well you know what?!" She yelled at me, her golden eyes flashing, "He's dead! He's not coming back!" I flinched at her words as they hit me like a punch in the face and I recoiled slightly. I saw a little sadness dance in her eyes before she turned her heel and walked away.

"I'm going to take a shower." I said coldly. And I got off the bed and went to the bathroom, slamming the door.

"Mazal fuçking Tov! Good for you!" Rose snarked from downstairs and I ignored her. I focused on cleaning myself and I undressed and gazed into the mirror, I realized I had become a wreck. My hair was great and matted, my eyes were puffy and my face was swollen from crying, I was paler than usual, and overall, looked like crap.

Just like Charlie had after Renee left. He buried himself in work and isolated himself from the world and then ended up drinking away his regrets.

He wouldn't have wanted me to repeat his mistakes. Not the real him.

So I washed my hair, I shaved, I cleaned my body, I moisturized. I brushed my hair and teeth, I washed my face.

My skin was a bright pink from being scrubbed raw, yet I looked more alive than I had in days. I dressed in blue skinny jeans and white T-shirt. I was going to go and, as weird as it sounds, talk to Charlie.

I needed to get a few things off my chest.

After telling Esme where I was going, I drove to my old house and went to the backyard and sat against a tree.

The sun was high and the wind was blowing, and I took it as a sign that someone was listening because Forks didn't stop raining for anything, except special occasions.

"Uh, hey, Charlie. I hope you're listening. I kinda need to talk to you." It was awkward but it was somehow okay so I continued.

"I miss you. Well, the old you. My father. I hope you're somewhere better now, though. I have a few things to say now, and I hope you can hear them."

By now I was crying a little and I furiously wiped my eyes every few seconds.

"I'm sorry for not being there to grow up with you. I'm sorry our relationship wasn't so strong at the end. I'm sorry you became what you did. Most of all, I'm sorry that I fücked you up. I got you involved in a mess that I made and you ended paying the price. I'm really fuckīng sorry. I-I hope you can forgive me. I l-love you." I choked out. I was crying, but in a way, I felt better. I sat there for a few more minutes before getting up.

I was not going to sit around for the rest of my life. Rose was right.

So I got off my butt, said a silent goodbye to my home, to Charlie, and my past self, and I left.

I drove around a little bit to calm down before going back to the Cullen's house and making myself some food. Rose was in the kitchen and when she saw me, her mouth tilted up at the corner.

"So the zombie awakens!" She exclaims, however not in a rude way like before. I understood why she did what she did though. I was moping in an unproductive and self destructive way and Rose, albeit hurtfully, snapped me out of it.

"Yeah," I said, smiling at her brightly, trying to convey that I wasn't angry at her. I guess it worked, because she got up and helped me make a salad, which was delicious.

We sat there chatting for a little bit until Alice came downstairs, her face serious, and the playful atmosphere dissipated.

"Alice," I said gently, "what wrong?" She looked at me, shaking her head.

"We need to talk." My breath caught in my throat and I nodded and stood up. Rose looked at me worriedly, yet I couldn't reassure her nothing was wrong.

Alice led me to her room and sat me down.

"Bella, your shield seems to have strengthened and I cannot see your future anymore. However, I know one thing. You will be going to Volterra." I gaped at her. The Cullen's can't know! How angry Carlisle would be, I could only imagine.

"How do you know!? You said you couldn't see my future!" I said, my brows furrowed, and my heart racing. Alice placed her hand on my arm and gave me a calm look.

"Jane called me and said you had to come immediately and she said she wouldn't say why until you were ready. You know you can tell me anything, right?" Alice asked and I nodded, relieved Jane hadn't revealed my slight....infatuation.

"I know. So when do I leave?" I asked, trying to conceal my excitement. Maybe this is what I need. A getaway from Forks and some fun. Maybe Aro was super nice and kind and we'd hit it off! And spending time with Demetri and Jane would be amazing, Jane promised to introduce me to Alec and the rest of her friends there and I couldn't wait.

"I booked you tickets for tomorrow in the afternoon, but we can always change it." Alice said and I grinned at her happily.

"Thank you Alice!" I exclaimed and reached over so hug her slender body.

"Anytime darling. Make sure to call and text, okay?" I bobbed my head.

"I'm going to go pack," I said, half standing up from the bed. Alice laughed and her eyes twinkled with mischief.

"No need. I packed for you." I rolled my eyes. Alice looked at me, like she was expecting my refusal.

"Well that's a risk for me, but I'll take it. I hope you made good decisions!" I said, giggling and Alice smiled brightly.

"Don't worry, I did! Now go have fun before you sleep, you'll need it, we need to leave at noon tomorrow to make the flight, but you know Emmet, he'll be tough to get out the door." I looked at her weirdly.

"Why is Emmet coming?" I asked and Alice looked at me, her eyes suspiciously bright.

"We all are. We want to say goodbye to you, all of us." I felt my tear up, looking at Alice's sad, yet smiling face.

"Alice, I'm not leaving forever. I'm going to come back." I told her and she smiled and shook her head.

"Bella, I want you to take time for yourself there. I know Edward told you bad about the Volturi, but as you saw with Jane and Demetri, they aren't all bad. I think it will benefit you to stay there awhile, as much as we will miss you." Alice said earnestly and I smiled at her.

I know I didn't need her approval on the Volturi, or me going to be with them, but it was nice to know that my sister and best friend was backing me up.

Now as long as she didn't pack anything crazy, I'll be more than happy.