Diary Of A Single Father

can I kiss you

My new man.I turned around my bed and my eyes met Adam.

"You keep squirming..I can't concentrate..did you do something with Ryan..are you dating him"he demanded.

"No"I said.

"You just said aloud..my new man.."he mimicked.

"You're my new man"I pinned him against the bed nibbling him.

He pushed me away

"Oh I'm so jealous"Ann entered the bed.

"You should be..it's always men against girls"Adam retorted.

"I'm only seeing one man here who's my dad..am I suddenly blind?"Ann looked around.

I held Adam before he got to her and held them apart.

"My babies"I hugged them side by side.

"So are you seeing Ryan?"Ann asked

"No..but we are going to start dating..I wanna be sure you're ready for a new father figure"I said.

"Dad..we're ready ..we want you to be happy..very happily in love with a handsome man right Ann?"Adam asked.

"No..not just any man..Ryan..I want you with a man that loves you as much as you love him"Ann smiled.

"No matter what..both of you come first..in my life..no one can take your place..don't ever feel other wise"I said.

"We know that..it's old news"Adam screwed his face.

"I love you dad"both of them said together.

"Hey I said it first"Adam shouted.

"Whatever.I did"Ann yelled more louder.

"To your tent oh Israel..everyone to your room..for the sake of my ear drums"I stood up.
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I read magazines as Adam and Ann spoke to their father on phone.

The bell door rang and I opened the door.Ryan.
"Welcome"I hugged him.

"Adam"Ellis ran over to them.

"Papa..daddy's hot boyfriend is here"Ann shouted.

I face palmed

"I'm sorry"I whispered.

"Are you okay?"he cuddled me.

"Yeah..I'm really fine"I laughed.

"You have driving lessons"he pulled me up.

"We're going for driving lessons"I announced.

"They are going out on a date now"Ann shouted.

We left the house .

Ryan dragged me into the garage.

"Wow..dark places with a hot dude is dangerous"I smiled.

"Can I kiss You?"he whispered.
Yes daddy.

I wrapped my hands around his neck and drew his face down.
His lips met my wet urgent once and yes it was all I imagined and more.

He was a master kisser.

He bit my lips gently and sucked on my lower lips.he seemed in love with the lower lips because he always kept going back to it.

His hands pressed against my ads and pushed me against his arousal.

I stretched so that mine will press against his.but I was still shorter.

"We need to go"he whispered.

"Now?like this?"I grounded against his thighs.

"Uhh"he moaned

"Want me take care of daddy?"I whispered.

"Daddy?"he let out a small laugh.

"Hmmm"I kissed his neck.

"Lets go for a drive"he led me out and I pouted.

How could he leave me hanging like that.it was unfair to me.
We entered the car

"Common baby..we'll do more later"he kissed me.
"Promise?"I asked.
"Promise"he gave Me a small hug.

I guess I need to make daddy proud.

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We had dinner in my house that night.

When I walked them to his car Ellis was sleeping at the back seat.

"Do you want to go on a date with me?both of us alone..we'll have lunch and go buy a new teddy for Ellis..nothing big"he held my waist.

"Are you asking me out?"I asked.

"Am I?please go out on a date with me"he smiled.

"Yes..yes Daddy"I hugged him.

"Goodnight"he entered his car.

"Bye"I watched them drive away.

I entered the house Everywhere was quiet.the twins must be sleeping.

They would be going over to Jades tomorrow.

I would miss my babies.

So am I like dating Ryan now?
I wondered if going out on a date meant we were together now ?

We haven't really spoke about it.

Can a straight man suddenly become gay over night?

Was this one of those times therapists use patients for experiments?.

Ryan liked me right?

Were we moving too fast?.

I liked Ryan alot and I don't want him to leave me.

Was I depending on another man like I depended on Jade?
No