Purple Roses ° Sirius Black ✓

72 | all over again

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𝓓𝓮𝓪𝓻 𝓢𝓲𝓻𝓲𝓾𝓼,

I have been almost falling
asleep throughout the day,
it's not even funny.

Lily has been lecturing me about sleeping late. She thinks I spend the whole night watching outside our window. Like I sometimes do.

I didn't tell her the truth.
How would I do it anyways?
"Sorry Lils, I spent the night
talking to Sirius because
he couldn't sleep?"
She would have been even more mad!

All the girls were sleep last night early,
like they always are. It was
late and I was in the process of falling asleep too, but then a light took
my attention.

It was barely visible, but I still saw it.
So I got up and kneeled
down to grab it, turned out to
be our connected journal.

You were writing in it, that's why a dim light was coming out of the pages.
I took it with me to bed and sat down, finally opening it.

You were writing my name multiple times, asking if I was asleep.

I almost didn't respond because
my eyes were closing, but I managed
to get a quill from my night stand.
I made my way to the window
and sat down, writing with the
help of the moon.

I answered that I was awake,
and you instantly replied, requesting
me to meet you downstairs in the common room.

I did not questioned it.
I was going to see you, why would
I deny it?

I put on my slippers and carefully
went out of the dorm, making
my way down.

When I got there, it was empty.
The fire illuminated enough for me to see around, but you weren't there.

I walked a little further and I looked around. I was going to call your name, but before I could do anything, I felt
two hands cover my eyes, making me jump in surprise.

❝Guess who❞
you said mimicking a deeper voice.

I smiled lightly,
recognizing the smell of the
cologne I gave you a year ago.

❝Remus?❞
I answered playfully.

You instantly took of your hands
and I turn around, smiling at you.

❝why would it be Remus?❞
You asked,
looking at me questioning.

I shrugged.
❝maybe he would wants to study?❞

You raised your eyebrow.
❝At one in the morning?❞

❝I would❞
I said, smiling cheeky at you.

❝of course you would, Sammy❞
You said giving me a similar smile.

You took my hand and we sat down in front of the fire.

❝why did you called me here?❞
I finally asked after a while.

You shrugged.
❝I couldn't sleep, and I know you
have trouble sleeping too so I figured you would be awake❞

I nodded, continued looking at the fire. But then I turn to look at you and you were concentrated in the flames, frowning lightly.
❝What's on your mind?❞

You seemed to remembered
where you were and blinked a couple of times, but eventually turn to see me, sighing.

❝I suppose I'm just...thinking of everything and nothing at the same time❞
You said, but then you
frowned even more deeper.
❝That doesn't make any sense, right Sammy?❞

❝It does, actually❞
I said nodding.

I hesitantly grabbed your hand
and squeezed it.

❝It does makes sense,
I do it all the time❞
I said, giving you a reassuring smile.

You gave me a smile back, and continued to tell me what you meant by that, telling me what has been
bothering you, what makes you angry, sad and happy.

That's how we spend the whole night.
We didn't sleep. We didn't even
realized it was another day until a
third year came down from the
dorms to go to breakfast.

We didn't realized it was another
day until the sun shined through the windows, kissing us in the face.

We laughed and make out way
up to our dorms to changed so we could go to breakfast together.

Even though my eyes are slipping and they don't let me see properly,
I would do it all over again if
it meant I get to see you when
no one else does.

Goodbye Sirius, I'll see you tomorrow.

𝓢𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓵𝔂,

𝓢𝓪𝓶𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓱𝓪