Noona? (Straykids Ambw)

Chapter Four

Felix's Pov
From the corner of my eyes, I kept my focus on Maddie watching her walk through the aisles in her own little world. It's been a few weeks since the whole telling her about my little space, but the whole strange doings about it is, I haven't been able to slip since telling her.

My little side had like this wall up and wasn't letting her in at all and was making me much more stressed out as the time passed. So because Maddie is an amazing caregiver she brought me to the store today and we're gonna try and figure out what exactly makes me slip.

"Felix, have you seen anything yet?" I blinked out of my thought focusing on her watching her playing with her hair flicking her eyes back over to me.

"No noona, and it's like this big brick wall like nothing is working," I grumbled shaking my head why did I have to have something so stupid and complicated affect me in a way I had no control over.

"Hey relax." She mumbled coming over to me she scooped up my hand holding it gently giving me the one beautiful smile that was making my stomach do flips. 

"Will figure out what makes you slip okay, and when it does will spend all day back at the dorm playing okay." She mumbled still smiling and I couldn't help but smile squeezing her hand back gently.

"Thanks noona, I know its a handful but I really appreciate you being my caregiver," I told her gently. She just grinned at me softly cupping my cheek softly and I placed my hand over hers.

"Let's go to the food section?" She suggested and I nodded my head getting lost in studying her. She pulled my hat over my head more before grabbing my hand in her lacing it with hers.

We walked through the store unnoticed which I'm grateful for I love stays but at the moment I'm stressed and I'm not a very happy person when stressed out.

I'm sort of an asshole. While Maddie was leading the way my eyes landed on so much apple juice and my little heart couldn't handle the sight of apple juice, it was so much better than orange juice and was sweet and I was not expecting to yank Maddie back towards the Apple juice happily.

"Noona! It's apple juice!"

"Yep, I think we found it little one."

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Madelyn's Pov
"Noona do you want some Apple juice?" I couldn't help but coo at the sight of Felix laying on his bed cuddling with me with about his fifth cup of apple juice a studio ghibli movie playing in the background.

You could tell he was really relaxed, and he was a full chatterbox. He would tell me so much, how he loved his noona so much and how he loved his hyungs and Jeongione so much is what he called Jeongin.

"No sweetie Noona is okay, I bought all that Apple juice for you." I giggled out poking his nose watching him wiggle it around deeply still drinking his apple juice tipping it all the way back.

"Noona is the best, all the others noona aren't,"  he grumbled focusing on the Tv screen making me chuckle running my fingers through it all across his scalp.

"They just don't quite understand you little one, but I promise Noona will always understand, and she always will," I whispered pressing a big kiss on his cheek making him laugh out wiggling around from me.

"Noona gave me a kiss! Icky!" He whined and I couldn't help but laugh out at that and set his sippy cup down quickly tickling him.

"Looks like you have noona germs now!" I laughed hearing how loud his squeals and laughter was trying to stop my hands. "Noona! Felix can't breathe!" He squealed out laughing even harder.

I couldn't help but smile and giggle pressing kisses all over his cheeks and face happily. "What's the magic word?" I playful asked my fingers still attacking his sides.

"Please mommy!" He yelled out still laughing and at first, I was a little taken back by him calling me mommy but, it didn't bother me.  I found it so cute and adorable he was blushing too I think he realized he had yelled it out.

I smiled and let him go allowing him to sit up and quickly he spoke. "Noona I'm sorry it just came out and I couldn't help it please don't be mad at me." My heart swelled up when I noticed him crying and it made my heartbreak.

I quickly cupped his face hugging him close to me snuggling him "Felix shhh it's okay, I'm not mad at all I promise, I really promise its okay, you're still my cute little one." I whispered gently stroking away his tears.

He nuzzled his head across my chest as much as he could sniffling a little as he did so before he spoke up quietly.

"No one ever loves me and I know they won't like little me, and that's all I want.... are you my Noona or mommy?" He asked quietly rubbing at his cheeks deeply. He looked up at me his eyes holding so much pain, but at the same time, you could tell he curious and confused with himself.

"Sweetie, I can be anything you want me to be okay? Noona or Mommy I don't mind because it's still with you." I whispered quietly still holding him close he nuzzled his head on my neck almost in the brink of sleep.

"My mommy only."