Dead Souls She Ones Loved

Is it really anger?

You smiled and I felt it burning

The adrenaline is too much to bear I don't know how I am finding through

Sometime I just want to kill you

I hate you

I felt it in my bones ruining me

Maybe your name was written in blood under my skin

My blood red and blue but yours white and gray I And I killed you

Killed you, burned you, destroy you, ruined you in my mind

Too much to take but too less to give

I ruined you with grace and buried you with a smile

I swear four seconds and you are gone

Just give me a change to ruin you

So that I can divorce you, force you to beg and curl back to me

Because even after all this I don't want you to leave

I wanted you to suffer like you made me

With all due respect I asked for you to die

Or for me to kill you instead

The rise in temperature in my blood whenever I see you

Is replaceable to its core

Like how can you look at yourself in the eye?

When I can't stop my hands from stabbing your neck

Piercing your soul so that you don't talk

So that I don't feel your voices running under my skin anymore

After all the things you did to me

You insulted me and gave me wounds I couldn't erase

You looked all pretty and high

When I was suffering with scars on my skin

The scars still fresh but old and dried

After all those years

I found nothing in your eyes

I could never forget you

And you didn't even try to make me forgive you

You lied with tears in your eyes

And I smiled with hated in mine