Hatching

Birthday

Back on the train ride, all of them were wiped out. The reason they took a train, the staff didn't feel the need to pay for cars since they could just travel by train. And at this time, the station was pretty empty. Plus the real problem was, they couldn't exactly afford to pay for two cars to fit all eight of them, so Train was the best solution. 

Dawa was knocked out, he was sitting between Yoongi and Hobi, his head lolling in every direction, subconciously trying not to bother the two next to him. 

"Ha! Hyung looks like a rag doll like that!" Jimin joked earning a laugh from the two youngest. Jin let out a chuckle before gasping. 

"I almost forgot! Tomorrow is his birthday!" 

"Wait really? How do you know?" Hobi asked. The fact that none of the other members knew concerned Jin. He would have thought that they would have remembered what Dawa told them.  "He told yo- Ohh wait no, I saw on one of Bang PD Nim's files."

Yoongi felt a little bump on his shoulder and realized that Dawa's neck looked like it was about to snap so he gently placed Dawa's head on his shoulder. "This boy." Yoongi muttered. He didn't understand how someone he met not long ago can feel like his brother from another mother. 

"We have to get him cake! I mean what's a birthday without cake?" Jungkook challenged. "We are going to get cake for him right?" Everyone nodded, assuring Jungkook. 

"I think we should ask Bang PD nim for a day off... he looks like he can use some rest. We all can." Jin stated, he eyes were closing they were nearing their stop. 

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Little croaking sounds broke the silence in their dorms. Everyone had the privilege to sleep in. Dawa slowly stirred awake, trying to turn off his annoying alarm off. He looked at the time and date, his eyes squinting before he suddenly got up, causing him to bang his head on the bottom of the top bunk. 

"I forgot, I'm such an idiot." He scolded himself as he walked out of the room quietly. 

"Hi mum..." He called. He was only going to leave a message since they didn't pick up, but he felt the need to do this. It was the day of course. "I...I'm sorry I can't be there today. I'm really really sorry about it all. I hate that I'm here on a day like today, but I'm-" Dawa couldn't finish the sentence. He just couldn't. He hated this feeling. Guilt from the past, mixed in with the current guilt of forgetting and pain all mashed together. With anger towards himself. Usually, he could handle it. He could take the pain, but something about being apart from them, not being their added to the other feelings broke him apart. "I'm sorry." He sobbed, trying to keep his crying low. 

'I can't wake them up on their off day' He thought as he continued to sob. He was curled up on the floor of the small common room, he was getting the hiccups, making it harder to breathe for him. His head was pounding, he couldn't think properly. He heard soft footsteps. But his eyes were shut, he hated this day and he wanted to get it over with. 

"Listen to my voice. Focus on it okay?" A pause. It was barely bright outside, the sun had just risen. "Breathe in. Hold...breath out....hold." The voice guided him. Until Dawa's breathing became more relaxed. "It's okay to cry, just don't cry alone." Yoongi. Dawa recognized. It was Yoongi's voice. 

"I-I'm sorry if I woke-" Dawa still had his hiccups. "you..."

"I was already awake. Don't worry about it. Do you want to talk?" The two were sitting next to each other. Well, Dawa was laying on his side, still curled up while Yoongi was next to him. 

"I'll make breakfast." Dawa responded, sluggishly getting up. Yoongi winced a little upon seeing Dawa's tear-stained face. The face that was usually clean and so pulled together. The fact that Dawa changed the subject so quickly, closing off his emotions did not go unnoticed by Yoongi. 'How can he just go poker face like that in such little time?' Yoongi's eyes followed him. 

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One by one, the rest of the boys started to trickle in. All rubbing their sleepy eyes and trying to tame their bed head as they sat on the floor. 

"guys! It's his birthday!" Jimin whispered. Everyone nodded, but Jimin was convinced they weren't fully awake to understand what he was saying. 

Yoongi walked in carrying plates and utencils. "He made us breakfast. Help yourself." Yoongi informed, digging into his own food. His coffee was sitting not too far from him of course. 

Jimin happily got up followed by Jungkook and Hobi. "Happy birthday!" Jimin sang, while taking food. 

"Okay." Dawa responded. His face was ice. Jungkook was about to tell Dawathat he should respond more heartedly until he looked up. Dawa's face looked like he wanted to kill. Hobi also noticed how Dawa's aura seemed off. Jimin's smile melted away at the lack of response. 

"Hyung! Happy birthday!" Taehyung shouted as he skipped into the kitchen. Dawa's jaws were crunched tight, his face looking more icier than ever. 

"Oh, Happy bir-"

Hobi saw something change in the boy in front of him, he saw how Dawa's eyes became a glare, how his face scrunched up. He saw the boy getting ready to snap in slow motion. He could see the hot flaming anger click in Dawa. 

"Can you all just shut up?" He growled. By now everyone was in the kitchen. "Just eat and leave me the f*** alone!" Namjoon and Jin shared a look, puzzeled at the sight of Dawa. Yoongi just shook his head, disappointed in himself. 'I should've known he was going to snap again.'